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"We will always be friends forever."
<3
so today, back to school. It was pretty cold today, no?
1st period - review...had a lot of laughs today in that class
2nd - review...fire drill...
3rd - test.
lunch - sat with silverback haha...talked with corey
brought my working papers because i forgot to when i started working in the summer...oops. walked with bilbo to the parking lot
came home.
i have to go back to the school in a half hour or so to get danielle. i have a nice little after school snack for her. French Toast style...i'm such a nice friend. she's been wanting french toast for a long time, and i made some so i saved her a few pieces! then it's off to:
Tim Hortons
Cash Checks
Bring Back Working Papers
Go To Job Lot for Danielle
Get A Card...well she does
Then She wants to pay for food for me, seeing as i went and picked her up and everything
but i dont plan on eating, so gas money is fine...
Get Gas, also...
i love having a whole list of things to do in my life.
i wrote this all last night before bed because i couldn't sleep...
-I don't know if 11:11 counts for me, because i always look at the clock when it's 11 minutes after any hour. What an emo thing to think about.
-tony comes home after november 5th. 13 months FLEW by...and so much has happened within that time period. it's like he won't know who i am when he gets back, and that's weird. there's so much he missed back here.
-so many times ive tried to write down all of the songs on all of my mix CDs, and always stopped at the third one because i got frustrated.
-I was not meant to see ETID Sunday night. If I was, I would not have gotten tonsilitis! and that is how i look at it.
-I hate school, and I wish we had a huge senior class that was really close like the kids i saw from pennsylvania today on MTV...they were fun.
-i'm not going to homecoming. My last one of my entire high school career. Oh well.
-What if i don't graduate? Imagine that?
- i'm not even going to bother with URI anymore and go straight for CCRI. Everyone says its such a better decision anyways...a much smarter decision, so ill just stick to that.
- this mix mish left at my house makes me very sad.
- i miss my cousin
- corey is a true best friend and im beginning to wonder how i ever let us grow apart.
- i need to love my friends more, and show them that i appreciate them...and care about them. because lately i know ive been treating everyone like shit. and i don't know why...so i will take this time to show some loving
Corey and I have been through so much together. Freshman year, when i started bawling at lunch and she took me to the bathroom and we sat on the floor of the handicapped stall and she let me cry the entire period. The amazon in my backyard...her parties, 6th grade when people were assholes to her i always stuck by her side no matter what and stood up for her, and she always shows how much she appreciates me for that, which makes me feel like maybe i'm not such a bitch afterall. the fact that she is mature, and can hold conversation about things that other people are very air-heady/clueless about.
Danielle, my babooshka...my sidekick. never judges anyone, never gets in the middle of anything, never drives me to the point i want to strangle her. i wish i could be like that more, and not see the negative side of everything in my life.
Nicole and i used to sacrifice worms when we were little. make mushroom/grass soup, and keep it in a bucket in my backyard, and the next time she came over we'd open it right back up and add some more ingredients to it. it smelled awful, and was pretty nasty, but that's all we ever did. also had a mean tennis ball throwing tournament on the stairs, and cushion jumping was our all-time favorite hobby in life. i miss those days a lot...then we grew apart, and then became better friends again sophomore year. i guess things have changed slightly, and we were kind of losing each othere there for a second, but things are back to normal again, thankfully. i feel like i have not seen her in years, but she is one person who i look at as beautiful on the inside and out. she is so full of happiness all of the time.
Brittany and i go way back to cheerleading when we were like 8. Didn't really know each other all that well...but along with nicole and danielle we randomly became friends. Well, through Chad, who i was almost going out with...and they used to date so it was a weird situation, but we hung out at my very first YMCA show...that is where I met Paul for the first time, also....
Paul is probably the most important person in my life. Lately i have been trying to push him away. Why that is, i'm not too sure. There was this song that matched how i felt perfectly and i heard it the other day, and I guess it hit me pretty hard the other night that what i was doing could really effect me. and not in a good way. there is no way in hell i'd be able to push paul out of my life, or out of my mind or my heart. it is impossible, and i am stupid to think i could do it. if i even think of not ever talking to him or seeing him again in my life, it makes me feel sick. i dont know if its bad to feel that attached to someone or not. he is the one guy who doesn't cause me to be jealous. there is way too much to say about this boy, i will save you all the mushy talk. but bottom line is that i love him. i love him a lot.
GLAWRIA ANN. since 6th grade. My "twin." my partner in crime. going up to westerly to hang out with sammy and jeff. i can never thank this girl so much for being so caring, and patient with me. every year i go through the same phase...where I want nothing to do with anyone, and she has never left my side, and she knows to just wait until it passes over. and i look up to her. she is smart, funny, beautiful, sweet, and a little repulsive sometimes haha "MY MOM FAHHTED" and she can be a maniac when she drives, but it's just one more reason to love her.
Billy GONSALVES. whom i never spoken a single word to since the 7th grade maybe, until the show at the ocean mist. thanks for the ride home, by the way. we then developed our small group of very tight friends...who hung out all summer long. everyday, until all hours of the night. doing whatever we wanted to do. fireworks, car rides, movies...fights...everything was worth it. Sometimes he may get on my nerves, just because sometimes i feel he is telling me how to live my life, and we fight sometimes, a lot...but even when we are fighting i know deep down he does not mean half the stuff he will say, because he is outspoken like myself, so i understand. and he takes the time to listen to me bitch about the same, stupid thing...
Michelle mish face ass donkey nut. my kid sister, the one i feel i need to set a good example for, and have to protect from people who are jerks. you do not mess with michelle, that is all i have to say. we didnt know each other until last year. and even then we only said hi in the halls or at lunch. "I HAVE THOSE EARRINGS!" 'ooooh....' but she is now one of my best friends, and she makes me pee my pants all the time with laughter. and i am there for her no matter what.
Chayd and i go way back...12 or 13 years maybe. i was friends with his cousin, and i used to hang out at her house all the time and he'd come over sometimes. we went sledding...and stuff like that. then in my sophomore year, we ended up all hanging out at brittany's house and i wondered if he remembered who i was, and he did, and now we bitch to each other all the time...and he always makes me happier when im hanging out and in a bitchy mood.
Ryanny was going out with elyse, and was at my house one time when he had red hair and we sat and talked but i didnt have a clue as to who he was. then he ended up at britt's house that same night i met chad on her birthday and ever since then we have been best friends. i love his hugs, his advice, and his laugh and his stories when he is half asleep, and how loveable he is. i miss trampoline nights, cuddling, shepards pie, burgers, wendys...band practices, me and him in the basement while he played guitar and i sat in a snapple chair in a fleece blanket because it was so effing cold down there...i miss him so much.
i have to go get danielle...ill finish this up later. this is kinda fun.
MOVING ON:
JUSTIN! MY BFF STYLE is someone i guess you could say i met through myspace, but he knew sarah...so i dont consider him a myspace person. and i feel he is like me in a lot of ways, and we have weird ESP episodes that are crazy and i love it. and he is so much fun to be around, and doesn't make me feel awkward...and he loves wendys as much as i do. but i love him because he listens to me bitch and tell stupid worthless stories all my life, and i tell him everything in my life.
heather mack...i have grown some-what apart from her lately but that's because of me. i am a jerk, i guess and maybe sometimes i get a little frustrated but i love her just the same. and she has been there through thick and thin and put up with all of my bitchy moods and my complaining and crying and i love her for that. we used to go and cheer with the cheerleaders at soccer games, and now just heather does that. oh well! it was fun anyways!
i think im done with this. i dont remember why i wrote this last night? maybe because i felt lonely from not seeing anyone since last week...haha.
picked up daniar from school
she ate her french toast
i was her mom
went to tim hortons
dropped off papers
stupid old ladies...make me so mad
stupid old men, too in job lot..soo mad.
dropped her off
its beautiful out.
i love head automatica.
and i will french kiss whoever invented lactaid, they are my savior.
was overflowing with thoughts.
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i have to sneeze, but it will NOT COME OUT! i hate that!
mom and i set up the trampoline around 6:00. we have to level the ground where it is, though. come over and jump with me! haha.
i love everything about this weather. i could sit outside all day long in a hoodie and fleece pants. it makes me feel so energetic and happy, and i can breathe and it's not stuffy and my cheeks are all rosie and i love it so much. everything about it! and when i drive the color of the leaves on the trees, and the leaves fallingggggg from the trees ugh i love it all so much. but i do miss summer...a lot. i can't wait until my birthday though! WOOHOO!
this is my favorite song right now:
The world was on fire no-one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
I never dreamed that I'd loose somebody like you
No, I don't wanna fall in love
No, I don't wanna fall in love
With you
What a wicked game to play to make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do to let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say you never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do to make me dream of you
And I wanna fall in love
No, I wanna fall in love
With you
The world was on fire no-one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
I never dreamed that I'd loose somebody like you
No, I don't wanna fall in love
No, I don't wanna fall in love
hair
what a weird picture...
this one made me chuckle a bit. apparantly i am a frog?
my favorite, dirty...hoodie :)
whoa! elisha smiles!?
im done posting tonight, i PROMISE
<3
so today, back to school. It was pretty cold today, no?
1st period - review...had a lot of laughs today in that class
2nd - review...fire drill...
3rd - test.
lunch - sat with silverback haha...talked with corey
brought my working papers because i forgot to when i started working in the summer...oops. walked with bilbo to the parking lot
came home.
i have to go back to the school in a half hour or so to get danielle. i have a nice little after school snack for her. French Toast style...i'm such a nice friend. she's been wanting french toast for a long time, and i made some so i saved her a few pieces! then it's off to:
Tim Hortons
Cash Checks
Bring Back Working Papers
Go To Job Lot for Danielle
Get A Card...well she does
Then She wants to pay for food for me, seeing as i went and picked her up and everything
but i dont plan on eating, so gas money is fine...
Get Gas, also...
i love having a whole list of things to do in my life.
i wrote this all last night before bed because i couldn't sleep...
-I don't know if 11:11 counts for me, because i always look at the clock when it's 11 minutes after any hour. What an emo thing to think about.
-tony comes home after november 5th. 13 months FLEW by...and so much has happened within that time period. it's like he won't know who i am when he gets back, and that's weird. there's so much he missed back here.
-so many times ive tried to write down all of the songs on all of my mix CDs, and always stopped at the third one because i got frustrated.
-I was not meant to see ETID Sunday night. If I was, I would not have gotten tonsilitis! and that is how i look at it.
-I hate school, and I wish we had a huge senior class that was really close like the kids i saw from pennsylvania today on MTV...they were fun.
-i'm not going to homecoming. My last one of my entire high school career. Oh well.
-What if i don't graduate? Imagine that?
- i'm not even going to bother with URI anymore and go straight for CCRI. Everyone says its such a better decision anyways...a much smarter decision, so ill just stick to that.
- this mix mish left at my house makes me very sad.
- i miss my cousin
- corey is a true best friend and im beginning to wonder how i ever let us grow apart.
- i need to love my friends more, and show them that i appreciate them...and care about them. because lately i know ive been treating everyone like shit. and i don't know why...so i will take this time to show some loving
Corey and I have been through so much together. Freshman year, when i started bawling at lunch and she took me to the bathroom and we sat on the floor of the handicapped stall and she let me cry the entire period. The amazon in my backyard...her parties, 6th grade when people were assholes to her i always stuck by her side no matter what and stood up for her, and she always shows how much she appreciates me for that, which makes me feel like maybe i'm not such a bitch afterall. the fact that she is mature, and can hold conversation about things that other people are very air-heady/clueless about.
Danielle, my babooshka...my sidekick. never judges anyone, never gets in the middle of anything, never drives me to the point i want to strangle her. i wish i could be like that more, and not see the negative side of everything in my life.
Nicole and i used to sacrifice worms when we were little. make mushroom/grass soup, and keep it in a bucket in my backyard, and the next time she came over we'd open it right back up and add some more ingredients to it. it smelled awful, and was pretty nasty, but that's all we ever did. also had a mean tennis ball throwing tournament on the stairs, and cushion jumping was our all-time favorite hobby in life. i miss those days a lot...then we grew apart, and then became better friends again sophomore year. i guess things have changed slightly, and we were kind of losing each othere there for a second, but things are back to normal again, thankfully. i feel like i have not seen her in years, but she is one person who i look at as beautiful on the inside and out. she is so full of happiness all of the time.
Brittany and i go way back to cheerleading when we were like 8. Didn't really know each other all that well...but along with nicole and danielle we randomly became friends. Well, through Chad, who i was almost going out with...and they used to date so it was a weird situation, but we hung out at my very first YMCA show...that is where I met Paul for the first time, also....
Paul is probably the most important person in my life. Lately i have been trying to push him away. Why that is, i'm not too sure. There was this song that matched how i felt perfectly and i heard it the other day, and I guess it hit me pretty hard the other night that what i was doing could really effect me. and not in a good way. there is no way in hell i'd be able to push paul out of my life, or out of my mind or my heart. it is impossible, and i am stupid to think i could do it. if i even think of not ever talking to him or seeing him again in my life, it makes me feel sick. i dont know if its bad to feel that attached to someone or not. he is the one guy who doesn't cause me to be jealous. there is way too much to say about this boy, i will save you all the mushy talk. but bottom line is that i love him. i love him a lot.
GLAWRIA ANN. since 6th grade. My "twin." my partner in crime. going up to westerly to hang out with sammy and jeff. i can never thank this girl so much for being so caring, and patient with me. every year i go through the same phase...where I want nothing to do with anyone, and she has never left my side, and she knows to just wait until it passes over. and i look up to her. she is smart, funny, beautiful, sweet, and a little repulsive sometimes haha "MY MOM FAHHTED" and she can be a maniac when she drives, but it's just one more reason to love her.
Billy GONSALVES. whom i never spoken a single word to since the 7th grade maybe, until the show at the ocean mist. thanks for the ride home, by the way. we then developed our small group of very tight friends...who hung out all summer long. everyday, until all hours of the night. doing whatever we wanted to do. fireworks, car rides, movies...fights...everything was worth it. Sometimes he may get on my nerves, just because sometimes i feel he is telling me how to live my life, and we fight sometimes, a lot...but even when we are fighting i know deep down he does not mean half the stuff he will say, because he is outspoken like myself, so i understand. and he takes the time to listen to me bitch about the same, stupid thing...
Michelle mish face ass donkey nut. my kid sister, the one i feel i need to set a good example for, and have to protect from people who are jerks. you do not mess with michelle, that is all i have to say. we didnt know each other until last year. and even then we only said hi in the halls or at lunch. "I HAVE THOSE EARRINGS!" 'ooooh....' but she is now one of my best friends, and she makes me pee my pants all the time with laughter. and i am there for her no matter what.
Chayd and i go way back...12 or 13 years maybe. i was friends with his cousin, and i used to hang out at her house all the time and he'd come over sometimes. we went sledding...and stuff like that. then in my sophomore year, we ended up all hanging out at brittany's house and i wondered if he remembered who i was, and he did, and now we bitch to each other all the time...and he always makes me happier when im hanging out and in a bitchy mood.
Ryanny was going out with elyse, and was at my house one time when he had red hair and we sat and talked but i didnt have a clue as to who he was. then he ended up at britt's house that same night i met chad on her birthday and ever since then we have been best friends. i love his hugs, his advice, and his laugh and his stories when he is half asleep, and how loveable he is. i miss trampoline nights, cuddling, shepards pie, burgers, wendys...band practices, me and him in the basement while he played guitar and i sat in a snapple chair in a fleece blanket because it was so effing cold down there...i miss him so much.
i have to go get danielle...ill finish this up later. this is kinda fun.
MOVING ON:
JUSTIN! MY BFF STYLE is someone i guess you could say i met through myspace, but he knew sarah...so i dont consider him a myspace person. and i feel he is like me in a lot of ways, and we have weird ESP episodes that are crazy and i love it. and he is so much fun to be around, and doesn't make me feel awkward...and he loves wendys as much as i do. but i love him because he listens to me bitch and tell stupid worthless stories all my life, and i tell him everything in my life.
heather mack...i have grown some-what apart from her lately but that's because of me. i am a jerk, i guess and maybe sometimes i get a little frustrated but i love her just the same. and she has been there through thick and thin and put up with all of my bitchy moods and my complaining and crying and i love her for that. we used to go and cheer with the cheerleaders at soccer games, and now just heather does that. oh well! it was fun anyways!
i think im done with this. i dont remember why i wrote this last night? maybe because i felt lonely from not seeing anyone since last week...haha.
picked up daniar from school
she ate her french toast
i was her mom
went to tim hortons
dropped off papers
stupid old ladies...make me so mad
stupid old men, too in job lot..soo mad.
dropped her off
its beautiful out.
i love head automatica.
and i will french kiss whoever invented lactaid, they are my savior.
was overflowing with thoughts.
------------
i have to sneeze, but it will NOT COME OUT! i hate that!
mom and i set up the trampoline around 6:00. we have to level the ground where it is, though. come over and jump with me! haha.
i love everything about this weather. i could sit outside all day long in a hoodie and fleece pants. it makes me feel so energetic and happy, and i can breathe and it's not stuffy and my cheeks are all rosie and i love it so much. everything about it! and when i drive the color of the leaves on the trees, and the leaves fallingggggg from the trees ugh i love it all so much. but i do miss summer...a lot. i can't wait until my birthday though! WOOHOO!
this is my favorite song right now:
The world was on fire no-one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
I never dreamed that I'd loose somebody like you
No, I don't wanna fall in love
No, I don't wanna fall in love
With you
What a wicked game to play to make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do to let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say you never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do to make me dream of you
And I wanna fall in love
No, I wanna fall in love
With you
The world was on fire no-one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
I never dreamed that I'd loose somebody like you
No, I don't wanna fall in love
No, I don't wanna fall in love
hair
what a weird picture...
this one made me chuckle a bit. apparantly i am a frog?
my favorite, dirty...hoodie :)
whoa! elisha smiles!?
im done posting tonight, i PROMISE