I think that it is time for an update
I signed up for the "Israeli Idol" dont ask me why I did such a thing. It is probabely the worst move I will make in my musical career.
I dont care. I want to try out for it and see if I am worth it. I am sure that all of ra'anana will be behind me. At least those that are not envious and/or hate me for some reson or another. Anyway, it must be a good experience. We shall see. Now a prblem arises from this little detail. What am I going to sing?? I know that I want to do it in stages. I want to first sing an english song and then a hebrew song. I know that I want to sing either Hallelujah by Rufus Wainwright or Amazing Grace (one of the many versions). I am, of course, open to any suggestions you may have and want to share with me. Now, I have no idea what song I want to sing that is in hebrew. Absolutely nothing. Well, I thought of "Pamela" by Boaz Sharabi but it is already a hit by Shay Gabso so I do not think that that will pass. Again, I welcome any suggestions you may possess :P.
I have this issue about friends. How do I make good friends?? I take 2 hands, 2 feet...joke apart, I need to know a person really well in order for me to be their good friend. At this Iris will probabely laugh but I am serious. The fact that I came to this stinking country 2 years ago doesnt help me in the slightest.
Now, as I recall, somewhere during the middle of 11th grade I was seriously thinking of settling down and seeing only one group of people. That didnt work out because I need my social life to be flowing and changing. In the end I ended up being surrounded by people that I cant remember their names the day after. Even though I enjoy being with everyone of those people, I dont feel close to anyone. So now I am in a sticky situation.
Ms. Dafna and I had a little chat (with tea :P) about this subject. She told me that she had the same problem but in the end (with time)(btw I dont have time), everything sorted itself out. She said that she ended up with 3 or 4 best friends. She said that I will learn to dust my friends list once in a while. That is almost impossible. I will then feel like I am missing out on friends that I could have had. Trouble is with me that I want to be everywhere at the same time. I still havent gotten over the What if...,What would have happened if... questions. When somebody invites to their house and I dont know of it then I hear somebody telling me something about it a day after I feel slightly rejected by that specific group. But those are just my fucks. I mean, I went somwhere else. I had a good time. Why cant I stop worring about the past and what has happened?? It is just stupid. I sometimes wish that I hadnt made the immigration from Kenya to Israel or from Israel to Kenya. But then again, I wouldnt know what would have happened if...
I have to stop!!!
Stupid questions. I have to stop writing about my problems. They just depress me.
I dont care. I want to try out for it and see if I am worth it. I am sure that all of ra'anana will be behind me. At least those that are not envious and/or hate me for some reson or another. Anyway, it must be a good experience. We shall see. Now a prblem arises from this little detail. What am I going to sing?? I know that I want to do it in stages. I want to first sing an english song and then a hebrew song. I know that I want to sing either Hallelujah by Rufus Wainwright or Amazing Grace (one of the many versions). I am, of course, open to any suggestions you may have and want to share with me. Now, I have no idea what song I want to sing that is in hebrew. Absolutely nothing. Well, I thought of "Pamela" by Boaz Sharabi but it is already a hit by Shay Gabso so I do not think that that will pass. Again, I welcome any suggestions you may possess :P.
I have this issue about friends. How do I make good friends?? I take 2 hands, 2 feet...joke apart, I need to know a person really well in order for me to be their good friend. At this Iris will probabely laugh but I am serious. The fact that I came to this stinking country 2 years ago doesnt help me in the slightest.
Now, as I recall, somewhere during the middle of 11th grade I was seriously thinking of settling down and seeing only one group of people. That didnt work out because I need my social life to be flowing and changing. In the end I ended up being surrounded by people that I cant remember their names the day after. Even though I enjoy being with everyone of those people, I dont feel close to anyone. So now I am in a sticky situation.
Ms. Dafna and I had a little chat (with tea :P) about this subject. She told me that she had the same problem but in the end (with time)(btw I dont have time), everything sorted itself out. She said that she ended up with 3 or 4 best friends. She said that I will learn to dust my friends list once in a while. That is almost impossible. I will then feel like I am missing out on friends that I could have had. Trouble is with me that I want to be everywhere at the same time. I still havent gotten over the What if...,What would have happened if... questions. When somebody invites to their house and I dont know of it then I hear somebody telling me something about it a day after I feel slightly rejected by that specific group. But those are just my fucks. I mean, I went somwhere else. I had a good time. Why cant I stop worring about the past and what has happened?? It is just stupid. I sometimes wish that I hadnt made the immigration from Kenya to Israel or from Israel to Kenya. But then again, I wouldnt know what would have happened if...
I have to stop!!!
Stupid questions. I have to stop writing about my problems. They just depress me.