Would You Like Some Insomnia With Your Poem?
So for the last 3 or 4 days now I havent been able to sleep. I have no clue as to why I can't sleep I just know I can't untill after 2: 30 usually. It's rather odd and quite annoying to tell the truth. Maybe it's stress related over not getting enough hours or my mother in the hospital or that suddenly people won't leave me alone the one time I want them to so I can
A) pack in piece without calls or text messages
B) relax and not get bitched at for apparently "ignoring" someone when my phones not working
and C) Just sleep
I really just don't know. But at least my insomnia is makeing me do more things that I havent done in foever. Like recently I started reading Manga again and it's quiet relaxing.
Also I wrote a
Beat of Mine
How can I stand ni a river of love,
When it sways so like the ocean?
beat beat baby,
says my heart,
My pumping live of love
how can I be like stone,
when you set my heart aflame?
As much as I say I'm being stronger,
I'm being brought down by your light,
every beat beat your heart makes,
soon follows the beat of mine x2
I'm trying to get sober,
off the thought of you,
but every beat that brings me closer,
you take me back two
you set my heart on fire
you set my heart aflame
As much as I say I'm getting stronger,
I'm being brought down by your light,
but every beat beat your heart makes,
soon follows the beat of mine x2
...with no problem at all! I so happy about that. Ever since I came back from europe and I had lost my voice I wanted to cry because I realized how much I love to sing even if I think I suck. Because I'm glad to have my voice back I sing around anyone and everyone regardless of what they say and writing a song...that just makes me even more happy! Now if only I could get an acoustic so I could write music to go with it -_-'.......
And really the only thing I can't complain about in my life because I MADE it that way is of course.....DJ. (I know you were expecting it XD). Well the Day after I got home from paris I told DJ that I felt like I wasn't loved or that he just didn't care about me or where our relasionship was headed and he told me the only reason we still talk on the phone is because I still want to and that he didn't give a shit if we talked on the phone at all. (this paragraph WILL be runons). Well I'm getting fed up with trying to better our relationship and told him I wasn't going to try to force him to talk to me on the phone anymore and that he could just text me whenever he wanted to talk. So the next day he apologized for not calling that night because he was busy and I told him I really didn't expect him to call because
1: He didn't say he was going to call before
2: It's not something he likes to do and
3: He never called before so it's really out of the ordinary for him to call me
For some reason it mad him upset or whatever and then....that same evening dropped his phone in a bucket of water (out loud I said "how in the world did that happen?" and then forgot about it) so basicly I hadn't heard from him in 2 weeks and as much as it bugges me I'm getting use to it because I need to learn to expect things like this to happen. But one things for sure...
I'm standing up for myself
A) pack in piece without calls or text messages
B) relax and not get bitched at for apparently "ignoring" someone when my phones not working
and C) Just sleep
I really just don't know. But at least my insomnia is makeing me do more things that I havent done in foever. Like recently I started reading Manga again and it's quiet relaxing.
Also I wrote a
Beat of Mine
How can I stand ni a river of love,
When it sways so like the ocean?
beat beat baby,
says my heart,
My pumping live of love
how can I be like stone,
when you set my heart aflame?
As much as I say I'm being stronger,
I'm being brought down by your light,
every beat beat your heart makes,
soon follows the beat of mine x2
I'm trying to get sober,
off the thought of you,
but every beat that brings me closer,
you take me back two
you set my heart on fire
you set my heart aflame
As much as I say I'm getting stronger,
I'm being brought down by your light,
but every beat beat your heart makes,
soon follows the beat of mine x2
...with no problem at all! I so happy about that. Ever since I came back from europe and I had lost my voice I wanted to cry because I realized how much I love to sing even if I think I suck. Because I'm glad to have my voice back I sing around anyone and everyone regardless of what they say and writing a song...that just makes me even more happy! Now if only I could get an acoustic so I could write music to go with it -_-'.......
And really the only thing I can't complain about in my life because I MADE it that way is of course.....DJ. (I know you were expecting it XD). Well the Day after I got home from paris I told DJ that I felt like I wasn't loved or that he just didn't care about me or where our relasionship was headed and he told me the only reason we still talk on the phone is because I still want to and that he didn't give a shit if we talked on the phone at all. (this paragraph WILL be runons). Well I'm getting fed up with trying to better our relationship and told him I wasn't going to try to force him to talk to me on the phone anymore and that he could just text me whenever he wanted to talk. So the next day he apologized for not calling that night because he was busy and I told him I really didn't expect him to call because
1: He didn't say he was going to call before
2: It's not something he likes to do and
3: He never called before so it's really out of the ordinary for him to call me
For some reason it mad him upset or whatever and then....that same evening dropped his phone in a bucket of water (out loud I said "how in the world did that happen?" and then forgot about it) so basicly I hadn't heard from him in 2 weeks and as much as it bugges me I'm getting use to it because I need to learn to expect things like this to happen. But one things for sure...
I'm standing up for myself