promise i'm alive
and i am so in love! it is ridiculous, really. i never knew i could actually ENJOY somebody's company until he and i started hanging out, and i honestly enjoy every second of his company :) it's great. i feel like the luckiest lady ever. he treats me like he loves me. i feel like our relationship is truly beautiful. i feel like a pistachio muffin, toasted with butter. he feels comfy.
school is okay. lots of math.
fall is pretty but too cold. surreal netflix commercial got my mind trippin.
been having paranoia episodes every so often - not frequently - but bad all the same. cannot trust anyone, even my sister. convinced everyone is going to attempt to kill me. feel ashamed. petrified. anyway doesnt last for long so it's not so bad. will get over it in time.
i am really happy for now :) my man makes me feel so special!
school is okay. lots of math.
fall is pretty but too cold. surreal netflix commercial got my mind trippin.
been having paranoia episodes every so often - not frequently - but bad all the same. cannot trust anyone, even my sister. convinced everyone is going to attempt to kill me. feel ashamed. petrified. anyway doesnt last for long so it's not so bad. will get over it in time.
i am really happy for now :) my man makes me feel so special!