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Ehh...
It's nice outside but I feel the urge to explain myself. To everyone, especially my friends.
I've felt so much resentment towards Daniel lately. I understand EXACTLY why he feels the way he does about me and says the things he does to me but its all so circumstantial. Prior to knowing the "revoution" as my core group of friends, I worked 45 hour weeks plus school etc. Ive worked a job since I was 13 years old. I accepted grown up responsibilities (and privleges) at far too young an age. Once I broke up with Brad, I became a completely different person. I was free to hang out with and party with whomever I chose. Shortly after I met a guy who was seemingly perfect. I practically threw away my senior year in 30 some odd days to spend every waking moment with this kid. Everything about him was amazing to me, and still to this day I am locked to him. I quit school because public school is ridiculous and I began working with my dad at his rental houswhich I still do. However, in the midst of all this my parents discover I smoke pot. Then my parents discover all of my other use, decide I have a problem and ship me off to rehab. So here's where I am now.
1. I have no job.
2. I have no money
3. I have no graduated higschool
4. My family hates me
5. I have no friends
In the pursuit of solely having a good time, I've lost every person in my life that even remotely gave a shit about me. I feel that the people I hang out with now like me, yet they dont feel anything... laptop is dying, I'll finish this later.
It's nice outside but I feel the urge to explain myself. To everyone, especially my friends.
I've felt so much resentment towards Daniel lately. I understand EXACTLY why he feels the way he does about me and says the things he does to me but its all so circumstantial. Prior to knowing the "revoution" as my core group of friends, I worked 45 hour weeks plus school etc. Ive worked a job since I was 13 years old. I accepted grown up responsibilities (and privleges) at far too young an age. Once I broke up with Brad, I became a completely different person. I was free to hang out with and party with whomever I chose. Shortly after I met a guy who was seemingly perfect. I practically threw away my senior year in 30 some odd days to spend every waking moment with this kid. Everything about him was amazing to me, and still to this day I am locked to him. I quit school because public school is ridiculous and I began working with my dad at his rental houswhich I still do. However, in the midst of all this my parents discover I smoke pot. Then my parents discover all of my other use, decide I have a problem and ship me off to rehab. So here's where I am now.
1. I have no job.
2. I have no money
3. I have no graduated higschool
4. My family hates me
5. I have no friends
In the pursuit of solely having a good time, I've lost every person in my life that even remotely gave a shit about me. I feel that the people I hang out with now like me, yet they dont feel anything... laptop is dying, I'll finish this later.