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[yo_soy_fea]

so, i didnt go to class tonight.
teejay and amber convinced me not to go. and now theyre both gone.
but i cant legitimately blame it on them. im just being a slacker.
anyway

i have an irrational fear of bugs.
its crippling.

i really miss roman.
and ive never felt this way about adam...and i compare the two because they both live in other states. ive never missed adam with this much intensity.
with everyday i feel like im.....as much as i hate to say it...falling for him.
or whatever the kids are calling it these days.
i look forward to our conversations.
i look forward to him coming back to live here.
i enjoy the companionship.
and maybe i didnt really like austin that much. maybe i just liked it because i got to spend every night with him.
he comes back in january. i dont think things will pan out the way i hope.
but a girl can hope...cant she?

in the meantime, i really need a boyfriend.
reasons?
i need someone to pay for my dinner now that im broke.
i need someone to open my bottles of wine.
i need someone to kill the bugs in my basement.
and maybe...just maybe...i enjoy the companionship that comes with the "relationship" status.
we'll see.