Why being settled is so unsettling...
So I've been thinking a lot about my future and trying to decide what I should do next. For the first time in my life, I'm at a point where I love my job, I have great friends, I have a wonderful family and yet I need a change. In the past, when I've been so forward looking, it was usually because my current situation had something lacking. Now, though, it's more about needing a change of scenery and new challenges. If I do nothing, I will continue to feel like I am in a stagnant pool of water, no movement, no oxygen, just a dark, dank hole that can't sustain life.
My inner gypsy is telling me that it's time to move on. Every time I begin to grow roots, I have some need to pull them all up.
And yet, there are good reasons I am still here. My parents are getting older, and I am the only one nearby. I hate to leave my friends. The uncertainty of going to a new place is frightening. There is the practical reality of having to take another bar exam if I would like to continue to practice law. Plus, it's expensive to move.
(While I realize I can't stay in Florida for my parents because one day they'll leave me alone, despite their best intentions, I don't want to be so far from them).
I don't know where I want to go. Where will my soul feel at peace?