waaaaaaay too huge a jump for me
and so i was clicking on my facebook and chanced upon an old friend's update recently.
we are the same age and grew up in the same after school care centre when we were lil tykes. her sister was our teacher. i don't remember much of her while we were growing up and it gets a little embarrassing trying to recall. maybe it's cos she changed a lot and i remember her face when she was much much younger.
so anyway, she posted an album of pictures of her wedding and i was just looking through it with a smile on my face.
i've reached that stage or age where you can say that you are born in the same year as me and that you are married and i wouldnt even flinch. i'm used to it already. i mean, this is the year i turn 24. strictly speaking, in some countries, people can get married twice before reaching my age.
i'm ok.
so i left her a message on facebook telling her that i think she looks absolutely gorgeous, and we started a conversation from there. the power and benefits of having facebook.
then she left me with a shocker. another friend of ours who is married (remember i'm ok by this fact) is now... EXPECTING HER FIRST CHILD.
ok. you can chastise me for being childish, or the fact that i'm overreacting. but my puny little mind cannot fathom it. the pieces cannot fit in properly. a kid? like a real real human being?
i think what my mind was trying to do is to picture how i will look like carrying a child. truthfully speaking, i can see myself doing that. i can see myself being a mum and i will try my very best to be a hawt one at that. ;)
but what i can't picture is me, being pregnant. i don't know! don't ask me why! and yes, i do know too that to have a baby sitting in my hands, i should go through the 9mths of carrying a human in me. and so technically speaking, i should picture myself pregnant first THEN being a hawt mum.
but i can't!
i knew from young that when you cross over the 2-4 age, lots of things will change. it signifies another period of your life. no longer do people ask whether you have a boyfriend or not. it's "when are you getting married?" soon it'll be "when are you having your first child?"
i hope i get a chance to ease into the first question first before people start asking the second.
woah... having a kid... my childhood friend... i've arrived.
we are the same age and grew up in the same after school care centre when we were lil tykes. her sister was our teacher. i don't remember much of her while we were growing up and it gets a little embarrassing trying to recall. maybe it's cos she changed a lot and i remember her face when she was much much younger.
so anyway, she posted an album of pictures of her wedding and i was just looking through it with a smile on my face.
i've reached that stage or age where you can say that you are born in the same year as me and that you are married and i wouldnt even flinch. i'm used to it already. i mean, this is the year i turn 24. strictly speaking, in some countries, people can get married twice before reaching my age.
i'm ok.
so i left her a message on facebook telling her that i think she looks absolutely gorgeous, and we started a conversation from there. the power and benefits of having facebook.
then she left me with a shocker. another friend of ours who is married (remember i'm ok by this fact) is now... EXPECTING HER FIRST CHILD.
ok. you can chastise me for being childish, or the fact that i'm overreacting. but my puny little mind cannot fathom it. the pieces cannot fit in properly. a kid? like a real real human being?
i think what my mind was trying to do is to picture how i will look like carrying a child. truthfully speaking, i can see myself doing that. i can see myself being a mum and i will try my very best to be a hawt one at that. ;)
but what i can't picture is me, being pregnant. i don't know! don't ask me why! and yes, i do know too that to have a baby sitting in my hands, i should go through the 9mths of carrying a human in me. and so technically speaking, i should picture myself pregnant first THEN being a hawt mum.
but i can't!
i knew from young that when you cross over the 2-4 age, lots of things will change. it signifies another period of your life. no longer do people ask whether you have a boyfriend or not. it's "when are you getting married?" soon it'll be "when are you having your first child?"
i hope i get a chance to ease into the first question first before people start asking the second.
woah... having a kid... my childhood friend... i've arrived.