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so i havent updated bc i was wishing that everything would get better but nope everything is getting worse and i dont know what to do. i know what i should do but i cant i dont want to i love my bf more than anything and i really wish he felt the same. all that i ever seem to be doing anymore is crying and crying and thats not healthy but i dont know what else to do bc i love him soo much like i dont think anyone undestands how much i love him. i worked sooo hard to be where we are today bc i dont know i guess thats not good enough anymore i guess im not good enough anymore i think this is my fault that everything is falling apart maybe all those nights when i was exhausted and everything i should of stayed up with him inestead of being selfish and wanting to go to sleep maybe thinsg would be a lot better i dont know all i know is that im in love i really am I HAVE NEVER EVER FELT THIS WAY about any boy before and i never will....wtf why not tell you all exactly wahts going he doesnt want to be with me longer there i said it he doesnt want to he wants to leave me after prom and i have to let him and the thing that kills me is that its not like were gunna take a break he doesnt want me journal he doesnt and thats what hurts the most I LOVE HIM but nope too bad bc nothing works out for me ever and now im here left alone in my room crying for the 2164555454548 day but i thnk im getting use to it
ps this didnt help at all
ps this didnt help at all