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Oh, so tired... absolutely NO sleep last night, and now it's 8:11 AM and I should be waking up, not waiting to go to sleep...
Nothing much happening... I should go to TAFE... maybe later... And I'm going to a barbeque at my cousins house with my aunt. I hope the people there won't smoke and drink too much... dear god, if only they knew how bad their company is when they do that...
Anyway, maybe I'll update you on that later when it has unfolded...
I'm reading Fool's Gold again and am up to the last chapter, but am reluctant to read it all without having the next book on hand... so I'll have to go to the library for that today... I'm dreading it already, but that may be just my sleep deprived brain...
I'm finding it really hard to put anything particularly profound in this diary, mostly, I think, because of the fear of people reading it ad finding out who I truly am... lately I'm finding out just exactly HOW private I actually am... I knew I was pretty bad, but I'm finding out that I'm worse than I thought... I don't know if it's fear of rejection by myself or others, but this paragraph is really all I'm willing to write...
Nothing much happening... I should go to TAFE... maybe later... And I'm going to a barbeque at my cousins house with my aunt. I hope the people there won't smoke and drink too much... dear god, if only they knew how bad their company is when they do that...
Anyway, maybe I'll update you on that later when it has unfolded...
I'm reading Fool's Gold again and am up to the last chapter, but am reluctant to read it all without having the next book on hand... so I'll have to go to the library for that today... I'm dreading it already, but that may be just my sleep deprived brain...
I'm finding it really hard to put anything particularly profound in this diary, mostly, I think, because of the fear of people reading it ad finding out who I truly am... lately I'm finding out just exactly HOW private I actually am... I knew I was pretty bad, but I'm finding out that I'm worse than I thought... I don't know if it's fear of rejection by myself or others, but this paragraph is really all I'm willing to write...