No Day But Today

[ymarii]

Look, I find some of what you teach suspect
becasue I'm used to relying on intelect
but I try to open up to what I don't know
Because reason says I should have died a year ago.
There's only us
there's only this
forget, regret, or life is your to miss.
No other road no other way, no day but today.

I miss the naive days when I was just alone by myself looking for someone to turn to. I found someone, that was a bust, and now I've got someone new, but why am I not happy with myself. I still can't help but feel guilty.

Is she doing this to me on purpose? And I'm so sure that I want to move on, but is my heart saying the same? My mind is excited for the future but my heart is exhausted. I feel emotionally like I can't care about anyone else but myself, and the guilt is so painfull. Why is it that I do this to myself?

Will I lose my dignity
will someone care
will i wake tomorrow
from this nightmare

So much time has passed and I'm just sick and tired of the whole game...I want a life that is my own, and that is happy with what I have.