if only
someone felt this way about me
She don't know how much I need her;
She don't know I'd fall apart,
Without her kiss, without her touch,
Without her faithful lovin' arms.
She don't know that it's all about her;
She don't know I can't live without her.
She's my world, she's my everything,
And she thinks she needs me.
I've been working a lot lately and considering my job is pretty mind dumbing and anyone could do it, I've had a whole lot of time to think about things. Think about my life, how boring it is, how I can't wait to get out of here. Experience new things, new places. So far I'll be in anyone of the following places: california, new york city, boston, philedelphia, texas, or florida. Some places I know people. Some places I'll be all on my own. I don't know where I'm going but I hope it will clear things up, make me grow up some more. Figure out what's really important to me, and hopefully get me away from all the daily bullshit, or at least give me new bullshit. Relationships are interesting lately. I don't exactly know where I fit into the equation in a lot of them. Romantically, or just friendships. I guess all I can do now is focus on the art. Get more done. Everyone likes me, I've got the skills, now I need the numbers. One thing that I'm really happy about though is that I'm being wicked responsible. Paying off my debts and getting Christmas out of the way. Jeremiah and I are getting better. I really like that. I didn't notice how much I missed him. Somehow, he always finds a way to make me worry less about things. Dave is still wonderful. I don't know how things with this shall work out though. In the begining it was grand, we talked all the time, about everything, and it was never akward, or silent. Now I feel like I'm bugging him. I don't know. Chris is just being stressful. It bugs, me so much. I say effort, he pulls away more. I think maybe it's time I give up completely, surrender. Somehow for me it's always a loosing battle, and my army is wicked tired. I don't know quite yet if I'm going to New Hampshire, I still need to talk to Caitlin, but I hope so badly that I get to go. It would be so rad. Family is getting better. While my mom and I are having some problems here for the most part it's just badass. Let's just hope things stay good.
She don't know how much I need her;
She don't know I'd fall apart,
Without her kiss, without her touch,
Without her faithful lovin' arms.
She don't know that it's all about her;
She don't know I can't live without her.
She's my world, she's my everything,
And she thinks she needs me.
I've been working a lot lately and considering my job is pretty mind dumbing and anyone could do it, I've had a whole lot of time to think about things. Think about my life, how boring it is, how I can't wait to get out of here. Experience new things, new places. So far I'll be in anyone of the following places: california, new york city, boston, philedelphia, texas, or florida. Some places I know people. Some places I'll be all on my own. I don't know where I'm going but I hope it will clear things up, make me grow up some more. Figure out what's really important to me, and hopefully get me away from all the daily bullshit, or at least give me new bullshit. Relationships are interesting lately. I don't exactly know where I fit into the equation in a lot of them. Romantically, or just friendships. I guess all I can do now is focus on the art. Get more done. Everyone likes me, I've got the skills, now I need the numbers. One thing that I'm really happy about though is that I'm being wicked responsible. Paying off my debts and getting Christmas out of the way. Jeremiah and I are getting better. I really like that. I didn't notice how much I missed him. Somehow, he always finds a way to make me worry less about things. Dave is still wonderful. I don't know how things with this shall work out though. In the begining it was grand, we talked all the time, about everything, and it was never akward, or silent. Now I feel like I'm bugging him. I don't know. Chris is just being stressful. It bugs, me so much. I say effort, he pulls away more. I think maybe it's time I give up completely, surrender. Somehow for me it's always a loosing battle, and my army is wicked tired. I don't know quite yet if I'm going to New Hampshire, I still need to talk to Caitlin, but I hope so badly that I get to go. It would be so rad. Family is getting better. While my mom and I are having some problems here for the most part it's just badass. Let's just hope things stay good.