人間関係
- former friend/colleague
I hate to be thrown last minute work, especially so when i know i am just being used. That is why i wasnt that happy when i was asked to vet his english worksheet a second time even though i had told him not to do so after the first. It began as he just sent a message asking for me to vet his worksheet by the end of the day. I was pissed. End of the day? What makes you think i am free to do so in the next few hours? And who do you think you are? though it does not take too much time for me to look through, i could not understand why do u have to send it to me in such a short notice and what are the assumptions u have in that i can readily respond?!
And so when he did the same the second time, i told him off. He then asked if i am free to meet for another gathering that includes a third person (the colleague that i was not that comfortable to be with too…), without hesitation, i turned him down flat.
Yesterday i realized i can spare some time to meet sometime next week and so asked if he is free…maybe i too felt i was too harsh but it was also to see what his response was.
True to my expectation, he never replied.
- fuck buddy 1
またあきさんと会いました。前回と同じくすごかった😍I never expect myself to allow someone i met for just the third time to finger my ass in such a sensuous, lascivious manner. まさか自分がそこまでほぐされて許すとは思ってなかったけど、最高に気持ち良かったw
As he humped me from the back, beads of his sweat rolled down his cheeks and onto my back. I turned round to face him and sticked out my tongue to lick his face. Then as I moved to his lips, he began lurching his tongue into my mouth, and we were just so carried away with that moment of lust as we locked ourselves in a deep engagement of tongue swirling. Fuck. That was just estactic.
We then went for dinner and i realized he had just lost contacts with 2 of his existing fuck buddies. One had to stop seeing him for sex as his boyfriend had found out. While the other blocked him on the app after he was not responsive in arranging a meetup.
I kind of understand how heartless, irresponsible, and 理不尽 pple are on the app. Some are just so self-centered that if you do not reply within a time frame after you appeared online, you will be blocked since they perceive you as a waste of their time.
Yet i also can say how hurt one feels when things turn out this way. No one likes to be blocked. And it is just unreasonable to be blocked for not following one’s time schedule.
Well this is a gay dating app-that is to be expected.
- fuck buddy 2
彼が帰ってから、泣きたいほどの虚しさが襲われて、仕方ないと思ってました。
At first I think i really fell hard for him. With him around, i was literally all over him and maybe that is why i feel this way when he left. But then i also realized it was all just at the spur of the moment. I enjoy the time we spend together, and so I was just engrossed in indulging his presence.
「僕たちこれからどんな関係で続けますか？」
he reasoned we could be friends as he acknowledged the incompatibility of our carnal desires. I responded if it’s fine to stay status quo. But he does not like the idea of セフレ・ソフレ as he feel that it is just for one’s carnal desire and temporary in nature. And the funny thing is that he will seduce me to fulfill his sexual needs while we lay in bed together.. lol
The ironies and hypocrisies he show. Lol. Aren’t we meeting up in the first place because of this sexual attraction? Haha.
Well, if we stay as friends, according to him, we would engage in more 健全な活動. And i am definitely not agreeable to that if it meant that I have to give my chances of イチャイチャする with him.
Yet he too is torn by his own feelings. Well, i wont deny that i am struggling with that too. But i am not that stuck up with the label likes and such on human relations. I enjoy his company, I enjoy kissing him, i enjoy feeling him, i enjoy his sensual moans-and thats all that matter to me.