I am my own worst enemy...

Jun 14, 2004 17:59

"It's no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy
Cuz every now and then I kick the living shit out of me"
~Lit
I love that song. That line is so true, we are our worst enemies, and yet our best friends. Unfortunately I am beating myself up about every little thing I could have made right or stopped, or done better, etc. etc. Jon kept telling me to stop beating myself up about things, but I kinda can't help it, so much easier to be mad at yourself then it is to be mad at other people. I love my mood swings, yes you read that right I love my mood swings. They're severe but that's what I love, I can go in a matter of minutes to being so happy, to being so quiet withdrawn and depressed right back to happy. The depression makes the happiness better, I used to be good at hiding my depression though, lately I've been slipping on that, my dad noticed the other day that something was bothering me, and he barely knows me, hehe kinda funny. I hope tomorrow is a good day, it'll be stressful though, I forgot the stupid scratch thingy to use for my art project (due tomorrow) but hey it's all good maybe I'll get it done in class. I can't wait until finals are done tomorrow, and we get to watch newsies in journalism hehe I love movies like that, where they'll all just break out dancing in organized steps and such. I am a sucker for the sappy (oops, i meant happy) movies. I hate scary, I can fucking scare myself thank you I don't need the help of a movie to jump start my overactive imagination. Well I have a pretty shitty headache, and I never got that nap on Jaspers bed. <3MW

sappy movies, scary movies, newsies, mood swings, journalism, nap, depression, dad, jon, art class

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