MY BABY!!!!!
I finally got my baby...TK-2 midi (Field hockey stick). Heh, a girl asked if I really had a baby, guess she didn't know my stick was coming in this week. I'm so excited to use it. I remember I was excited to use my first stick when I got it, I wonder if the joy of using this stick will wear off as well. That's weird how that happens, why people lose interest in things just because they've had them for a long time. That makes me thing about hidden motives. Hmm explanation, a lot of people are getting live journals again and they put the link in their profiles which is what I did when I first got mine. Then I started to think why did I put that link in my profile when I wanted to do this for me not everyone else so why did I want to put it somewhere where it could be easily accessed? Interesting to think about. Along those same lines I hate when my dad touches me (hug, kiss on the cheek, little things like that) and I wonder if something happened when I was younger that freaks me out when he comes near me. I love how people can lie to themselves the best, you'd think because it's your own brain you couldn't make it think something that wasn't true, but on the other hand you can convince yourself of something and then it becomes true for you...Why I never believed some of my memories, because I wasn't sure if I just made them up and thought they were true. I decided that I am absolutely petrified of going to college. I don't want to leave my friends behind that are in the grade below me, I don't want to not be able to see my friends in my grade that will be going to different colleges...I just don't like the idea of things changing, I'm really happy with the way things are in the moment. Plus I don't like the responsibility it's going to bring. It's hard enough being in AP Biology. I think I worked really hard to find a high school sweetheart because I wanted to have something that would stay the same throughout my life. Maybe I'll get that who knows, it'd be nice though...I don't know why I'm so scared of change most of the time...oh well...I should go finish my homework and play with my baby...(I NEED A GOOD NAME FOR HIM/HER IF ANYONE HAS IDEAS!!!!) <3MW