plot bunnies
1. These eyes that used to look at nothing; because I’m looking for you. And this heart that used to beat for nothing; because I’m waiting for you.
2. "I can’t breathe without you,” Yunho laughed derisively, brokenly. “No... I am breathing but it’s hard... It’s really hard Jaejoong and it hurts and I can’t stand it. Breathing’s supposed to be easy, automatic you know? It’s not supposed to feel like your chest’s going to explode, like, like there’s not enough oxygen for you, like you don’t know how to breathe.”
3. Yoochun sighed. “Yunho’s just... different. Nobody really understands him, even I until now, I still can’t say I understand him and we’ve known each other since we’re 7. But he’s- I don’t know how to explain. All I know is that he’s just the way he is. He doesn’t love people easily, incapable of doing so, and yet he loves too much. It’s the same how he doesn’t care about anything and yet he cares about everything. He’s Yunho like that you know. It wasn’t supposed to make any sense but that's the only way to make sense of him."
4. "No,” Yunho frowned heavily. “Listen to me. You have to make it. Let me die first because if you die before me, I’ll lose it. I'm selfish. I can’t handle that much pain Jae. I don’t want to see you die.”
When Yunho talked like this, JaeJoong always felt at loss. “Death isn’t something we have control of, Yunho.”
“I know... But if I have the choice, I want to die before you. If I can watch over you after my death, I would. If you fall in love again, I won’t mind. In fact, I’ll be happy as long as you’re happy when I’m gone. I want you to forget me and move on... But if you die first, I can’t do that Jae. I don’t know why I can’t but I'll try but I know I can’t live anymore without you. So if I follow you, it’s okay right? You won’t be mad at me, right Jaejoong?”
5. Changmin can't understand what makes Jaejoong so happy. He cleared his throat. “Let me get this straight. He can’t drive, he can’t cook, he hate socializing and he won’t even step out of the house if it’s not with you or for you.. Why the fuck are you getting involved with him?!”
It wasn’t important that they bickered about it. Jaejoong and Changmin always fought about everything. They believed that's what bestfriends do.
But it is a problem that Yunho chanced upon their fight this time and worst, neither of the two noticed him slipped out of the cafe with a heavy heart.
6. Why is it so hard to notice and appreciate what we got? So we started realizing things only when it’s no longer there.
7. Why is it so wrong to live like today’s our very last day? So we started to regret only when it’s a second too late.
8. Why is it so hard to say all the love and thanks we felt inside? So we started to say them only when there’s no one to hear.
9. Jaejoong’s one of the most unfortunate ones. He was born with a broken heart.
[Everyone knew you can’t (shouldn’t) love a broken heart. They said if you do, your heart’s going to be broken too.]
But Yunho love Jaejoong. His heart had chosen to beat for him.
[Everyone knew a broken heart cannot beat (love) like a normal heart could. That’s why they can’t love at all.]
Jaejoong wanted to love and be loved. But everyone knew it’s not possible so he shied away.
[But what’s wrong with two broken hearts beating for each other?]
Jaejoong didn’t mean to but he broke Yunho’s heart. And to everyone’s surprise, Jaejoong's heart bleeds for the sight of it.
10. After that horrible incident last year, he learnt how to live without even the barest of touch but he’s yet to learn how to live without his lover’s smile.
2. "I can’t breathe without you,” Yunho laughed derisively, brokenly. “No... I am breathing but it’s hard... It’s really hard Jaejoong and it hurts and I can’t stand it. Breathing’s supposed to be easy, automatic you know? It’s not supposed to feel like your chest’s going to explode, like, like there’s not enough oxygen for you, like you don’t know how to breathe.”
3. Yoochun sighed. “Yunho’s just... different. Nobody really understands him, even I until now, I still can’t say I understand him and we’ve known each other since we’re 7. But he’s- I don’t know how to explain. All I know is that he’s just the way he is. He doesn’t love people easily, incapable of doing so, and yet he loves too much. It’s the same how he doesn’t care about anything and yet he cares about everything. He’s Yunho like that you know. It wasn’t supposed to make any sense but that's the only way to make sense of him."
4. "No,” Yunho frowned heavily. “Listen to me. You have to make it. Let me die first because if you die before me, I’ll lose it. I'm selfish. I can’t handle that much pain Jae. I don’t want to see you die.”
When Yunho talked like this, JaeJoong always felt at loss. “Death isn’t something we have control of, Yunho.”
“I know... But if I have the choice, I want to die before you. If I can watch over you after my death, I would. If you fall in love again, I won’t mind. In fact, I’ll be happy as long as you’re happy when I’m gone. I want you to forget me and move on... But if you die first, I can’t do that Jae. I don’t know why I can’t but I'll try but I know I can’t live anymore without you. So if I follow you, it’s okay right? You won’t be mad at me, right Jaejoong?”
5. Changmin can't understand what makes Jaejoong so happy. He cleared his throat. “Let me get this straight. He can’t drive, he can’t cook, he hate socializing and he won’t even step out of the house if it’s not with you or for you.. Why the fuck are you getting involved with him?!”
It wasn’t important that they bickered about it. Jaejoong and Changmin always fought about everything. They believed that's what bestfriends do.
But it is a problem that Yunho chanced upon their fight this time and worst, neither of the two noticed him slipped out of the cafe with a heavy heart.
6. Why is it so hard to notice and appreciate what we got? So we started realizing things only when it’s no longer there.
7. Why is it so wrong to live like today’s our very last day? So we started to regret only when it’s a second too late.
8. Why is it so hard to say all the love and thanks we felt inside? So we started to say them only when there’s no one to hear.
9. Jaejoong’s one of the most unfortunate ones. He was born with a broken heart.
[Everyone knew you can’t (shouldn’t) love a broken heart. They said if you do, your heart’s going to be broken too.]
But Yunho love Jaejoong. His heart had chosen to beat for him.
[Everyone knew a broken heart cannot beat (love) like a normal heart could. That’s why they can’t love at all.]
Jaejoong wanted to love and be loved. But everyone knew it’s not possible so he shied away.
[But what’s wrong with two broken hearts beating for each other?]
Jaejoong didn’t mean to but he broke Yunho’s heart. And to everyone’s surprise, Jaejoong's heart bleeds for the sight of it.
10. After that horrible incident last year, he learnt how to live without even the barest of touch but he’s yet to learn how to live without his lover’s smile.