SPN - Give Me a Leonard Cohen Afterworld by:victoria p.
Title: Give Me a Leonard Cohen Afterworld
Author: victoria p.
Summary: Sam wakes up one morning, and it's as if he's living the life he'd always dreamed of having. There's just one small problem.
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Kripke's, not mine.
Notes: Thanks to amberlynne and sullensiren for handholding, and to luzdeestrellas for betaing. Title from Nirvana.
Word count: 12,075 words
譯文聯結：上、下 感謝gabrielle的翻譯～\^_^/
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I'd like to introduce your story on my blog which is written in Chinese and I wonder if I could quote some sentences and put the link there? Thank you!
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Sure, as long as you include the link back to here and my name, that's fine. Thanks.
在看Take Two這篇文時，我就一直在想，如果立場相反，換成了Sam能夠有回到理想生活的機會，那麼Sam會如何做？
很高興的，我找到了這麼一篇文：Give Me a Leonard Cohen Afterworld，故事的時間點設於SPN 1x01一開始的時點，Sam一覺醒來，發現他身處在Standford時期和Jess同居之處，且Jess依舊健在，Sam丈二金剛摸不著頭緒，明明前一晚他還和Dean在某間不知名酒吧而已（該時點是在第二季"playthings"之後），當他要打電話給Dean時，Jess告訴他更驚人的消息： "your brother's been dead for twenty-two years."
he has to know what's going on, can't just leave Dean for dead, because Dean is all he has left, and this is just some crazy trick the demon is playing on him, to get him to betray Dean, and he won't do it. He won't.
Sam慢慢發現他所處的狀況，爸媽都還安好，仍定居於老家，一且都很美滿，惟獨Dean，Dean在劇集設定Mary媽媽死去的那一個晚上因為不明火災（！）死去，Sam深信這是某個精靈或邪神作祟，所以決定直奔回家找Missouri，試圖向她求助，Missouri是半信半疑（在AU世界中她與Sam並不熟識），但卻提示Sam是否有許什麼不該許的願望，well…這倒是點醒Sam了，他或許已經知道整件事情的來龍去脈了～
"Sometimes I wish none of this had ever happened," he said, hoping that was vague enough not to hurt Dean's feelings and still specific enough to keep Dean from asking more questions. "Sometimes, I still wish for normal."
Dean turned to the woman and nodded his head in Sam's direction. "I wish he could have the life he wishes for."
在看到這一段時，我的心幾乎要為Dean而融化了，他完全沒有想到他自己有什麼願望，或者更精確的說，他的願望就是弟弟能夠達成其心願，過著他想要的生活～you happy so I happy！
where the hell is Dean? Usually he's riding to the rescue by now, but Sam's pretty sure he's got to get out of this one on his own, and as much as he likes to think of himself as an independent adult, his first instinct is still to reach out for Dean.
我喜歡這文中，Sam發現Dean不在他身邊時的彷徨無措，顯示著他潛意識裡對Dean的依賴（讓我想起在劇集中有好幾幕，Sam都對著前來捨救他的Dean伸出手來，以在croatoan中那幕堪稱為經典），以及毫不猶疑，想要將一切拉回正軌的決心，他知道他這樣做會失去Jess、媽媽和爸爸，但他決心要讓Dean再回到他的生命中。我也喜歡文中Mary媽媽提到在AU-Dean死去前，對於剛出生的Sammy是如何的疼愛，完全沒有因為Sammy奪去父母關注而生的嫉妒心。我更喜歡文末，Sam仍保留著對於那段美好生活的回憶，尤其是對Mary媽媽，要知道，以原劇的設定，Sam對於Mary媽媽是完全沒有印象的，而他對於Jess的最後印象也不會停留在火燒壁花（冏～）的悲慘夢魘，對於John爸爸的最後回憶也不會是他責罵爸爸的懊悔上（天啊～沒一個好的耶～）
"Look, Sam, I don't really care what you think about this, but let me make one thing clear to you. If I see a chance to protect you, to keep you from becoming whatever the hell it is you're afraid of becoming, I am going to take it. And you can bitch and moan about it all you want, but that's just the way it's going to be, and you can't stop me."
"I don't want you to die for me, Dean. Not if there's a way I can prevent it, and you can't stop me from doing that."
我絲毫都不會懷疑Dean會為了保護Sam，讓他過他想要的生活而犧牲自己（他對自己是如何的自輕，又是對Sam如何的看重…淚），但我喜歡Sam表明他不要哥哥為他犧牲、並會保全哥哥的態度（這在2x22最末尾以及第三季也表現的很清楚了）， 兄弟倆是互相扶持的～（灑淚並灑花～）