all that ought to be said
Again comes the time when i have lots to express yet am at a loss for the adequate words.
I've been too busy to breathe lately. But when i try to tick off the things i've done off my To-do List, not much gets to be striked off. What am i busying myself with, then? I think it's the travelling to and from school that takes alot outta me. Plus i've been thinking alot and starting to get frustrated because i find no answers. This sem is a bitch, my readings have been piling up damn bad.
I vaguely remember a time when i would read a million blogs every night. Where the hell did i find the time to do so? I don even have the time to on my laptop these days. Upload pictures, check email, print notes, msn, there is just so many things to do online. To not come online means i don't have to deal with those, save for the *#$@! of friends waiting. Haha.
My 21st birthday party was a success, thanks to the many close friends who helped in one way or another. I am blessed with very true friends who are willing to go to great lengths for me,and i am thankful for them every day of my life. Of course, there are the not-so-true ones whose behaviour do not parallel what they speak about you to others, but i'm not gonna waste time blogging about people who do not deserve my time now. okay i'm sory i sidetracked. my party yes.
Thank you to everyone who came, even if you only stayed awhile. i know how ulu the place is myself, so yes, thank you very much. It was just a simple party, but in the 2 nights, i gained memories which would last me a long time. =) The huge turnout for the first night, with everyone adherin to the theme, is just touching. Lots of pics were taken using diff cameras, and people just mingled. Diff groups were doing diff things hahahah i just ran around like a happy butterfly. I would realli really like to list your names out one by one but my eyes are alr all red and sore. I remember the beds, the poses, the balloons, the friendship dance, and birthday cake and song, the tight hugs etc.The people. YJ 230-ers. NTU lit-ers. Sharlot & Irwin. Jason & Claire. Buddies. Pris. Mie Lin.Maslyn. YJ bballers. NCHS bballers. 4 Evo girls. Love. Sch buds and Raymond. Did i miss anyone out? The second night is less crowded but as interesting. Some leftovers from the previous night hahahaha, Cousins, NAF-CAC, Xavier. Qi Xiang. Michelle and bf. Jason Teo. Lester. Did i miss anyone out again??
To those who could not make it, no worries, i got your birthday wishes all the same. =)
Turning 21, is this a big deal? I cant decide. Not really though. Look at the time, i'm turning 21 in 20mins time weeeee. But what's the difference. Tmr will just continue the same way it did this morn. No? Thank you again, to everyone who wanted to bring me out today and tmr to celebrate my actual day. But i really feel like staying home. There is too much work to be done, and if anything, i need to sleep. Sorry, but thank you for the offers. Can i keep them and use next time? =)
Awww. My Winnie the Pooh singing balloon looks slightly deflated. haha. i'm gonna record down how many days it can last.
I know, i sound sad in tis entry. Am not feeling too good actually. Maybe the joy has been used up; maybe i'm just tired and stressed. Maybe also...there is just one more thing i wanna do for my special day but i know for sure i'm not getting it. Why is it that i can be so many people's princess, just not yours? The adults say life is tough. I say life is helpless. The many times i just had to grit my teeth and march forwards without saying any word to express how i was feeling. Dear God, please take all that longing away from me. Having said that, i'm not sad either. Haha i'm just neutral. neutral and helpless.
Goodnight world.