again nothing is well....
well since last time that i wrote not much has changed... my mom has now been in her appt. for almost a month. its nice and i like the fact that shes only 5 minutes away from me. i get to see her more now. i went to see my grandma last week. she is so different now. her memory is all fucked up and she cant remember simple things, like when shes talking and shit. she is just getting worse and i cant stand it. ive thought about this shit happening since i was really little and now its all happening. i dont know what to do. when shes gone it will be the end for me... and the worst part about it, is that the doctors say she has less than a year. i cant handle it. i have to drink when i think about it just so i wont spend the whole night upset and crying. and worse than that, my grandpa and my aunt dont even think shell make it to christmas. if thats the case i dont even want to have christmas. it wont be the same, and i just dont think ill be able to handle it at all. great now im crying.... im such an emotional shithead. whatever.... and sam... i just dont think we should talk for a while just because when we do all it does is hurt. and i just cant deal with ne more pain right now. and i wasnt mad at you parsay about the whole he said she said shit... i was just pissed cuz i want to know who (cuz i know its someone close to me) said it. but if you dont want to tell me its ok, i understand. it just hurt when you believed it. im not that shady, and you know that. but dont worry bout it... right now its all the last things on my mind.
yeah so ive been working like 3 weeks now at family dollar. its cool. i really like the ppl that i work with tho. mainly the one girl tho. shes really cool and we are always making each other laugh at work which is good when your bored and doing the same thing over and over. so yeah... oh yea and my phone shut off over the weekend. im waiting to get paid so i can get a new phone. im going with verison. ill have the same number tho, for ne one who cares. well i think im gonna get going now... i dont know when ill be able to update this again cuz bills laptop is all fucked up... so i guess whenever i get a chance to get on my parents comp ill do so... peace.
yeah so ive been working like 3 weeks now at family dollar. its cool. i really like the ppl that i work with tho. mainly the one girl tho. shes really cool and we are always making each other laugh at work which is good when your bored and doing the same thing over and over. so yeah... oh yea and my phone shut off over the weekend. im waiting to get paid so i can get a new phone. im going with verison. ill have the same number tho, for ne one who cares. well i think im gonna get going now... i dont know when ill be able to update this again cuz bills laptop is all fucked up... so i guess whenever i get a chance to get on my parents comp ill do so... peace.