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i really, really want to be discharged. as i've said before, face it: i'm not getting better at all. i puke in secret. i water-load. and chances are that my weight's going to drop during tomorrow's weigh-in, and i'll end up on CRIB. no one's going to talk to me then. no one talks to people on CRIB unless they themselves are on CRIB too, and in the same room. that was what happened with LP and i last time.
i need money. i want to binge so bad. i feel so anxious. i want to be thin. i want to die. why can't you all just let me go. let me be free. i'm selfish, i know. but i've always been giving in to everyone else previously.. couldn't you all just let me be this time?
i need money. i want to binge so bad. i feel so anxious. i want to be thin. i want to die. why can't you all just let me go. let me be free. i'm selfish, i know. but i've always been giving in to everyone else previously.. couldn't you all just let me be this time?