Jul 31, 2003 12:28
Mom,
hey how are you doing ????i hate mondays i just got ur card i have to admitt it brought me to tearsi tried not to let it but i miss u so much ,ya know ?
things are going okayin though though same as usualmy room mate is getting out in like 10 days which kinda sucks ,i hate seeing the ppl ive made friends with leave ,even though im glad there getting out and have a chance to live there lives again ..it just adds to the list of ppl i miss but shges been here 8 months si im glad shes finally getting out .
OKAY the bail situation i just wrote steve and told him this and i want u to know as well
i think it would be better if i just stick it out untill my next court dateand forget about bail not because im loosing faith in u guys i know for a fact you guys won;t ever give up on me, but because i personally don;t want to put u all thru this anymore the ppl who are puting up bail work hard for there there money and need it for there survival.
and the money u have u need ,i know u all want to see me come homeas soon as possiable as i do but in my heart i feel this is the right thing to do unless for some reason $560.00 appears please don;t stress iti only have a month till my court date and i have time serveredso ill prolly get out ..please no that i appreciate yours and everyones efforts to get me out but i refuse to put this stress on u all anymoreill just suck it up till the 28th and ill feel at ease knowing ill be here then and u guys aren';t stressing over it to get me out but tell everyone who offered i said ty and i love them and im not giving up hope this is just something i feel to do
Yeah nicole came up on sunday byherself some one was here at 900am but i have no clue who it was do u have any clue whi it was ?????????
nicole told me about toms brother paul thats so sad that he died he was only like 17 and a pretty chill kid i can;t imagine how tom is taking this i don;t know what id do if i lost my brother thats sooooooo sad and of course im in here ecverything happens when im in jail
your sick now steve brakes his foot nowthis ...it just shows how unexpected and preciuose life can be she also told me you talked to steve and that alot of ppl are giving him shit like ed?
well do me a favor repeat thses words in journal...they need to seriously back off him they have no right to sit there and say shit to him about anythingweather it be me in here or steve not writing or whatever just give the kid a breaki know him better then anyone and i know none of this shit has to do with the fact that he doesn;t careand i bet any of those ppl haven;t written me a letter either so who are they to say anything ...
do they expect me to jump to assumptions or assume they don;t care cause they don;t write no i imagine not ..so please back off i know steve must have his reasons..whjich they may not understand but i do and thatsd all that matters i know there doing it out of conmcern but i am the one here trying to hoild daily sanityi don;t need to hear the drama i know reguardless what anyone thinks the boi cares about me he doesn;t even no where he;ll live next month so please back off
Okaynow that i said that how are u feeling please send some poicturesso i can put them up in my room
i take my GED test tommrrow for Social studies i hatre social studiesthen i have my math and writting
ewwww math im not worried about my writting i just started studing my math one ...math and i don;t get along .
you know what i really want right now more then anything a real genuine hug for real a hug would be so good right now i know when i get out whoever the first person is i hug is jusy gonna make me cry serioslyhave u guys figured out whos coming on the 28th i would love if u and steve are there if u can;t i understand just as someone is there to bring me home ..
i know they don;t check ids at court house
first thing i wanna do is take a shower and put on my own clothes!!!!!mmmmmmmmm
so how have u been feeling have u started any neds yet i hope everything is koser with u if not i swear if they don;t stop dicking u around and start helping u out im gonna shove my non exsistent dick so far up there ass and fuck them so hard they;ll cry for there mothersim kidding its not ur fault they didn;t give meds sooner and they will be sorry if anything happens to u i feel bad enough adding to ur stressi don;t want u getting more sick cause of me i couldn;t lkive with my self i still worry about u all the time in here
im so grateful that to have a mom like u seriously i hope u know how much u mean to me .i don;t think id be alive if u weren;t surporting me which is why i look forward to ur letters so much ....i miss u so much !!!!!!
you its pretty sad that im only 20 years old and more mature then some of the women twice my ageit makes me laughjust how stupid and petty they can be its worst then high schoolbackstabling two faced bitches but i guess thats a female for ya
i want u to meet this lady mikalashes 38 shes a sweetheart youd like her alot i told her u guys should meet when we get out because u would get along real well shers from texasi think of her as my jail mom
sopmetimes i wish u could come visit me but i don;t think id do to well seeing u thru glass and not being able to go home with ya id prolly start crying right away same thing with steveand it would be just as hard on u guys knowing theres nothing u can do to protect me visits can be so hard
i really want to know who that was here sunday morning from springfield????
well mom ill let u go thanks for the card it was wicked cute and ur words of surpport they comfort me i hope i hear from u again thios week im trading drawings for evevelopes and stamps no money give everyone my love tell steve i love him and tom i give all my sympathey for his lose wish i could hug him
ill write u again
i love u so much 'and miss u more
all my love
your daughter
Tiffany
ps please post this whole letter
thanks