travel and plans
I'm so fucking stressed, but I can't figure out exactly why.
It's stupid because I'm on top of things, but I still get these waves of stress/worry.
It's possibly because I'm in charge of so many things this holiday. Important things. It's the first time I've been seriously travelling on my own, and not only that, but if I forget to bring ferry ticket receipts (I have to pick up the actual tickets in Athens) or the keys to the apartment, or the security code for the apartment, it'll have repercussions for the others as well. And if it's one thing I really, really HATE, it's when things get blocked for some reason or another.
To use travelling examples, seeing as that's the topic of the moment, when flights get delayed. When suitcases don't arrive. Basically, when anything hinders the original 'plan', I get frustrated and annoyed, to the point where I think I might have a mild case of OCD or something. I mean, I get annoyed if someone forgets something and we have to go back to get it, purely because it wasn't supposed to happen. Well, perhaps frustrated is a better word. It frazzles me.
Aaaanyway.
We're going to see Harry Potter tomorrow for one of my friend's birthdays and I don't want to go. I hate the Harry Potter films, and we're going to TGI's after, and I have no money and even if I did, I don't like TGI's... I'm just not in the mood, not in the mood at fucking all. I don't want to leave the house tomorrow, I want to sit at home and finish packing and just... do nothing.
But I can't not go, obviously, because it's for her birthday (even though her actual birthday is passed).
It's stupid because I'm on top of things, but I still get these waves of stress/worry.
It's possibly because I'm in charge of so many things this holiday. Important things. It's the first time I've been seriously travelling on my own, and not only that, but if I forget to bring ferry ticket receipts (I have to pick up the actual tickets in Athens) or the keys to the apartment, or the security code for the apartment, it'll have repercussions for the others as well. And if it's one thing I really, really HATE, it's when things get blocked for some reason or another.
To use travelling examples, seeing as that's the topic of the moment, when flights get delayed. When suitcases don't arrive. Basically, when anything hinders the original 'plan', I get frustrated and annoyed, to the point where I think I might have a mild case of OCD or something. I mean, I get annoyed if someone forgets something and we have to go back to get it, purely because it wasn't supposed to happen. Well, perhaps frustrated is a better word. It frazzles me.
Aaaanyway.
We're going to see Harry Potter tomorrow for one of my friend's birthdays and I don't want to go. I hate the Harry Potter films, and we're going to TGI's after, and I have no money and even if I did, I don't like TGI's... I'm just not in the mood, not in the mood at fucking all. I don't want to leave the house tomorrow, I want to sit at home and finish packing and just... do nothing.
But I can't not go, obviously, because it's for her birthday (even though her actual birthday is passed).