Gnar!
yea, nothing has changed out here...nothing at all. still same old boring shit. still can't drive anywhere, still am not allowed to visit other relatives. much lameness. i have no life to be angry or have any other emotions anymore. it all has been sucked out of me by the evil demon that is brainerd, minnesota. i did talk to my mother again last night. it made me really homesick and i started bawling. not crying mind you, bawling. full blown histerics and tears streaming down my face to form a puddle on the cement floor of my basement room. it sucked. i have never hated a minnesota visit as much as i hate this one. the really crappy thing is that it is my last time out here too. i should be making the best of it. but i cannot. all i want to do is go home and spend time with all my friends, drive my car, stay out until whenever, do whatever i feel like, get high, get drunk, eat good food from sundance, go play frisbee with kate, go sit in the park, go swimming in the river, play with my dogs, play with my bird, sleep in my comfortable bed, sit in my room that is upstairs and has a BIG window that i can open and shut, shall i go on or is the list long enough. does everyone finally understand how much i don't like it out here now?!? that is all for today, i am too depressed now to write anymore....