its amazing how one small comment or action can make your day into something absolutely wonderful! I swear! I'm such a spaz when it comes to this kind of thing!
I don't want to post again, so I'm just going to comment here.
The above can go both ways. I am such a spaz. Everything I do I am scared someone is looking at me and thinking "what the hell is her problem!?" I hate being paranoid. I swear, i just like a 15 year old with no idea what reality is. I hate life b/c I can't deal with it. I'm scared that people are always judging me when in reality I know they are too preoccupied with themselves to be caring about me. But even knowing taht they don't care doesn't change the fact that I'm still paranoid that they do care and are growing to hate me. I just wish I could think before acting like an idiot, but time has shown me that its impossible for me to do that. I am destined to be trapped in my own mind, scared of the world. I will end up old and alone b/c I will be so concerned with what pepole are thinking of me that I will leave myself to solitude in the mountains somewhere. And when I die, no one can mock my death, b/c no one will know that I am no longer in existence. Sometiomes I wish I could be like Snow White with little animal friends, b/c animal friends never let you down. Even if you killed off most of their species the animal would still love you. Maybe thats why old people have so many cats. I need to stop thinking b/c it just makes me relive everyhing that I think I did wrong, thus expanding my paranoia.
Only I can't think of even one instance where you did something that would've deamed you an 'idiot'. Maybe you didn't mean us when you said this though.
You know that your faults only make us love you more. They prove that you're human. Frankly, I'd get more annoyed if you actually were perfect. No on wants you to be perfect. You'd make us all look bad.
I think your faults are quite endearing, whatever they may be. And frankly, I really haven't noticed any of them.
The above can go both ways. I am such a spaz. Everything I do I am scared someone is looking at me and thinking "what the hell is her problem!?" I hate being paranoid. I swear, i just like a 15 year old with no idea what reality is. I hate life b/c I can't deal with it. I'm scared that people are always judging me when in reality I know they are too preoccupied with themselves to be caring about me. But even knowing taht they don't care doesn't change the fact that I'm still paranoid that they do care and are growing to hate me. I just wish I could think before acting like an idiot, but time has shown me that its impossible for me to do that. I am destined to be trapped in my own mind, scared of the world. I will end up old and alone b/c I will be so concerned with what pepole are thinking of me that I will leave myself to solitude in the mountains somewhere. And when I die, no one can mock my death, b/c no one will know that I am no longer in existence. Sometiomes I wish I could be like Snow White with little animal friends, b/c animal friends never let you down. Even if you killed off most of their species the animal would still love you. Maybe thats why old people have so many cats. I need to stop thinking b/c it just makes me relive everyhing that I think I did wrong, thus expanding my paranoia.
goodnight all.
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Only I can't think of even one instance where you did something that would've deamed you an 'idiot'. Maybe you didn't mean us when you said this though.
You know that your faults only make us love you more. They prove that you're human. Frankly, I'd get more annoyed if you actually were perfect. No on wants you to be perfect. You'd make us all look bad.
I think your faults are quite endearing, whatever they may be. And frankly, I really haven't noticed any of them.
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