Smoke Gets in Your Eyes
The past several weeks I've been haunted by aplenty of challenging thoughts. Generally about whatever is goinq on in my life, specially during those lyrical moments we have during lonesome times (admit it, you all do this, imagining levistud finishing the whole A-mei AMIT album).
I'll share one I guess.
My addiction or to say it lightly, insatiable appetite to cigarettes.
But I don't really give it much of a knock-down thought so far.
I've been promising myself to stay away from smoking for quite sometime now. But honestly, it doesn't seem to work. I've even tried to take some medicines that me and blur_fcuk bought from Bangkok last year. It worked for awhile but it made me feel sick all the time so I eventually stopped. The sooner I took the last pill, the sooner I got myself a new pack of Marlboros. I'm so lame.
I've only myself to blame and by all means my lack of will.
Samantha Jones says: "No, honey. Fighting a battle for Chivon is one thing, but holding on to those nasty cigarettes, well that's just whack"
Even Samantha Jones' thinks its whack!
I once thought of myself as a willful person that will do anything to get me whatever I want. But this isn't the case here. Honestly, I really want to quit this nasty habit. And I'm willing to find ways to stop. I really can't wait for a major health breakdown to tell me how stupid I am. Yes smoking's fabulous until you realize how much have you harmed your body.
I'll do a step at a time I guess.
P.S airyharse you're doing good progress. Keep it up!
Cest La vie!