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everyone says they will stay friends, and indeed some will. but as time passes, and we hang out again, i find we are growing more and more apart. this is not dedicated to one specific friend of the past, this a simple statement. i have noticed that i have changed, my priorities have changed, my life has seemingly changed as well. now it is not just me that has changed in all these ways, but all of my friends as well. i have not forgotten all the fun exciting times we have shared and high school graduation, now these friends i am talking about are not just limited to high school friends, this includes friends i have made after high school.
i have been reading a lot lately, two books this week infact. i am somewhat proud of this, seeing as i never read before. i listen to more music than i usually do, and i go to bed earlier than usual.
i have found myself not affraid of being alone, thanks to great selfhelp books i suppose. and i no longer question why past relationships didnt work out. i am a beautiful person and deserve a beautiful guy to spend time with, not nessisarily get married too, becasue i am too young for that right now.
i am so immature in so many ways. and i still want to adventure and find time to find myself, who i want to be, what i want from life. this is not selfish. i deserve this.
as for my trip back home next week, i am looking forward too. i am looking forward spending time with my sick brother, and spending time with my other brother and my mom. i am really going to work on the relationship with my mom and try to make things better, i love her soo much, yet we fight for no reason all the time. i plan on teaching brandon how to skateboard even better. i have a skateboard for him. it is a nice one. this makes me happy.
i have alwasy been the type of person that is always there for my freinds when they need me most, but when i need them, they are rarely there. this is the end of this. i will no longer subject myself to this. a friendship works both ways.
when i go home next weekend i will call all of my friends. they will either answer or not and it is their call to call me back. i am not worried about this. i am excited to go home to be with the ones i love.
i have been reading a lot lately, two books this week infact. i am somewhat proud of this, seeing as i never read before. i listen to more music than i usually do, and i go to bed earlier than usual.
i have found myself not affraid of being alone, thanks to great selfhelp books i suppose. and i no longer question why past relationships didnt work out. i am a beautiful person and deserve a beautiful guy to spend time with, not nessisarily get married too, becasue i am too young for that right now.
i am so immature in so many ways. and i still want to adventure and find time to find myself, who i want to be, what i want from life. this is not selfish. i deserve this.
as for my trip back home next week, i am looking forward too. i am looking forward spending time with my sick brother, and spending time with my other brother and my mom. i am really going to work on the relationship with my mom and try to make things better, i love her soo much, yet we fight for no reason all the time. i plan on teaching brandon how to skateboard even better. i have a skateboard for him. it is a nice one. this makes me happy.
i have alwasy been the type of person that is always there for my freinds when they need me most, but when i need them, they are rarely there. this is the end of this. i will no longer subject myself to this. a friendship works both ways.
when i go home next weekend i will call all of my friends. they will either answer or not and it is their call to call me back. i am not worried about this. i am excited to go home to be with the ones i love.