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I go out of my way to not talk about our relationship with him.. everyonce in a while I update him as to where I stand. I don't need to know where he is.. I'm pretty sure he's happy being at whatever stage I'm wanting to be at. I give him shit about not asking me out.. but it's not a big deal to me.. I don't care if we are dating or not.. Yesterday we spoke about it.. I don't even remember how the relationship part of the conversation went. But he told me he liked me alot.. and I told him moments I liked about him.. like when we were at the gatherings.. him sleeping with his dog made him attractive to me.. since he came into my life I dance agian.. and I like dancing.. though the dancing started with the book I was reading.. I had stopped dancing in public.. I dance when people are looking agian.. and how I feel generally pretty agian.. and I havn't felt attractive in a very long time.. he spurred the pretty in me... he gave his list.. and started tearing up about it.. for reasons that to me seem mundane and dreary.. like I once brought him food. I make sure that when he sleeps in he gets up and goes to work.. I check to make sure he's taken his pills.. because I don't want him to end up like adam.. things that I would do for anyone.. it was like noone ever has cared for him in his life... and I know thats a lie.. I've met his friends.. I've heard about his parents from him.. support is something he's not short on.. I also smack him when he's being a jackass and call him out when he's being a retard.. which most people won't do.. because he's got "anger issues".. I do everything I know has a history of setting him off.. and he keeps his cool.. I've even got his jealousy down to a minimum.. though he was surprised to know that I knew about his jealousy issues.. probably because I flirt with all of his friends.. but I said.. let me flirt and take refuge in knowing that no matter how flirtatious I become I'll be going home with you.
I don't sleep much anymore..
and today I almost single handedly bought 6000 dollars in pipes for the music box. I even got complimented on my ordering skills. Said I did it like a pro.. and then I told them I didn't even work for them. Then he asked if jake and I were together.. which I laughed about and said no.. the only things I'm the baby of is my puppies.. and I'm also thier bitch.. then today was suresh's birthday.. and robs.. both were shocked I got them a gift.. tomarrow I go to best buy.. hopefully invest in an external hard drive.. unload my music and movies.. otherwise I'll end up crashing my computer..
I'm making jake a man purse.. even if he doesn't like the actual manpurse he'll love the whole I made him a man purse thing. it'll be his haloween present.
I don't sleep much anymore..
and today I almost single handedly bought 6000 dollars in pipes for the music box. I even got complimented on my ordering skills. Said I did it like a pro.. and then I told them I didn't even work for them. Then he asked if jake and I were together.. which I laughed about and said no.. the only things I'm the baby of is my puppies.. and I'm also thier bitch.. then today was suresh's birthday.. and robs.. both were shocked I got them a gift.. tomarrow I go to best buy.. hopefully invest in an external hard drive.. unload my music and movies.. otherwise I'll end up crashing my computer..
I'm making jake a man purse.. even if he doesn't like the actual manpurse he'll love the whole I made him a man purse thing. it'll be his haloween present.