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I'm supposed to schedule for next fall semester next week and the thought of another semester makes me about cry. I'm so desperate to be out of school or burned out, I'm not even sure anymore, just that I don't want to be here anymore. Except for the part where the thought of moving home makes me really cry. I have friends here, a church, people. Dallas is some place where I have 3 people to hang out with and live under my parents. I'm not qualified for anything other than daycare and I have no idea what other options are out there.
I honestly think if I stay another semester I'll just be wasting my parents' money. I have no direction or tangible plans for this stupid degree that I don't really want at this point. But is quitting school after 3 years too much. I wish I knew a cave I could go live in. i have terrible grades, and even if I didn't it's not that I'd like to transfer anywhere. I just really want to not be in school of any sort. At all. When asked what I want, all I can say is a job where I'm done at closing time and don't have to bring it with me.
I dinner at a friend's house tonight; about 7 of us and I can't imagine leaving. But I have no idea what to do. I'm supposed to schedule to see a counselor about scheduling and I think I'm going to walk in there saying I want to drop out. I love my friends here so much and I love living on my own, but I despair at school right now, and have on and off since before I got to college. I never wanted to go, I was just expected to.
I honestly think if I stay another semester I'll just be wasting my parents' money. I have no direction or tangible plans for this stupid degree that I don't really want at this point. But is quitting school after 3 years too much. I wish I knew a cave I could go live in. i have terrible grades, and even if I didn't it's not that I'd like to transfer anywhere. I just really want to not be in school of any sort. At all. When asked what I want, all I can say is a job where I'm done at closing time and don't have to bring it with me.
I dinner at a friend's house tonight; about 7 of us and I can't imagine leaving. But I have no idea what to do. I'm supposed to schedule to see a counselor about scheduling and I think I'm going to walk in there saying I want to drop out. I love my friends here so much and I love living on my own, but I despair at school right now, and have on and off since before I got to college. I never wanted to go, I was just expected to.