Sweet Nothingness

[yesterdaysorrow]

Sometimes in life it takes something so big, so horrible, so breath taking. to make us realize certian things in our lives. today was one of those for me, just all the things i need to do with school. my own internal problems,Friendship issues, on that note, i completely feel selfish, wow, i can't belive i almost lost my best friend because i didn't like a few things she did. I need her..As much as we disagree, at the same time we need eachother. i only hope the best for her. Much love Ariel<3. (girl scouts honor, haha). Highschool is nothing more than, gossip, homework, and pressure as to what our future might be. We have the power to decide what were going to do, yet i still seem to be lazy. not anymore. even though new years has passed this is my new years resolution, just care alot more about school work. i don't like to fail. i don't want to be known as the low life. people can be so much more than they think, if they just THINK. I suppose i can't trust most people, Courtney told Ariel what i had said about Ariel when i was still upset with her. I understand why she did, she doesn't get the between us thing. whatever. i can't be angry with her, shes going through too much. besides i don't need more fights, i'm dealing with my own fucking war in my head. a war so big this could change my life, the way i think, the way i act, my attitude. pretty big war huh?

xO
-ShannO

Is this who i am?