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It's 4am sunday morning and I'm still up. I don't know why but I can't sleep for shit. It's been a good weekend so far. Didn't do much of anything but lay around and relax with marissa. Kinda nice for a change, to let my body catch up. I haven't rode since thursday either, but tomorrow I am gonna get up early and ride all day with the boys. Steve got a new stick and wants to learn some jibbing. Hopefully it will turn out to be a good day.
My brain is cluttered. Sometimes I wish that I could for once just relax and not think too much about things. Money has been bringing me down some. I am like fucking broke and there is so much that I need to get and have done. I'm so behind, and I am really starting to worry that I might lose my job. Friday, my boss had a meeting with us, he laid off a couple guys already and said that more lay offs might be coming. The company is not making any money right now and until it does he is going to do what he has to do he said. What the fuck will I do then, I won't be able to afford to pay my bills. I am really wanting to get my own place too and that will never fucking happen if he cuts my hours down. Just one shit storm after another. I'm tired of not being good at anything. I feel like such a waste. cursor
My brain is cluttered. Sometimes I wish that I could for once just relax and not think too much about things. Money has been bringing me down some. I am like fucking broke and there is so much that I need to get and have done. I'm so behind, and I am really starting to worry that I might lose my job. Friday, my boss had a meeting with us, he laid off a couple guys already and said that more lay offs might be coming. The company is not making any money right now and until it does he is going to do what he has to do he said. What the fuck will I do then, I won't be able to afford to pay my bills. I am really wanting to get my own place too and that will never fucking happen if he cuts my hours down. Just one shit storm after another. I'm tired of not being good at anything. I feel like such a waste. cursor