California.
I wish I were better at putting my thoughts into simple phrases.
Then maybe I could reflect on my journal, and analyze my situations
eh, nevermind.
Found out Yesterday my ex boyfriend is engaged. Getting married in a month.
This was totally out of left field to me.
I am really happy that he has found someone he feels so deeply about, and
I wish him the best.
Ever since I found that out, I just did a recap on the last year of my life, all the different events that have went on and it's absolutley insane to me how much has happened.
Here I am, Orange County, California.
19 years old, living my dream life.
No stability, no phone, but lots of oppurtinities.
right in front of me. Which ones do I want to take?
Whats best for me.
I am so used to just living in the day
i don't ever think of long term
but I think it may be time to consider it
Time to begin this growing up process a bit
at least enough to be independent and be able
to do things i want.
I miss my mommy. She's all the way in Florida, living in a small town, back to square one.
But she says shes happy. Thats all I care about.
I wish i could talk more to the people that are most important to me.
my thoughts are to crazy to try and put in a organized paragraph
fuck.
Then maybe I could reflect on my journal, and analyze my situations
eh, nevermind.
Found out Yesterday my ex boyfriend is engaged. Getting married in a month.
This was totally out of left field to me.
I am really happy that he has found someone he feels so deeply about, and
I wish him the best.
Ever since I found that out, I just did a recap on the last year of my life, all the different events that have went on and it's absolutley insane to me how much has happened.
Here I am, Orange County, California.
19 years old, living my dream life.
No stability, no phone, but lots of oppurtinities.
right in front of me. Which ones do I want to take?
Whats best for me.
I am so used to just living in the day
i don't ever think of long term
but I think it may be time to consider it
Time to begin this growing up process a bit
at least enough to be independent and be able
to do things i want.
I miss my mommy. She's all the way in Florida, living in a small town, back to square one.
But she says shes happy. Thats all I care about.
I wish i could talk more to the people that are most important to me.
my thoughts are to crazy to try and put in a organized paragraph
fuck.