I need to be in control.
Tonight sucks.
I'm just so frustrated I'm close to tears.
I just don't think it was right for Katie to drink with Jessie. It's one thing to know Jessie drinks and for her to know that we drink, but it's totally different to do it together when Katie is an RA. To me, that is just ethically wrong. But I wasn't there. They knew my opinion. Patrick even promised he wouldn't offer her any. But what happened? They all drink together while I sit here dealing with drunks up the wahzoo. "We miss you..." was the phrase I heard over and over again. I don't fucking care that you miss me. I care that I'm not in control of the situation. I care that I told you all how I felt about the situation and you all chose to disregard everything I said. I'm already mad that girls from my floor lied to my face about having alcohol or being drunk. I'm mad that I'm going to be up until 4 in order to be leaving in the morning at 9.
Patrick calls and feels terrible that I'm upset and keeps asking why I'm so quiet when I've told him multiple times the situation at hand. I acted peeved with both Jessie and Katie. I can't hide my emotions and I really wish I could because I think I would be in a better place with less people mad at me if that was so.
I'm just so frustrated I'm close to tears.
I just don't think it was right for Katie to drink with Jessie. It's one thing to know Jessie drinks and for her to know that we drink, but it's totally different to do it together when Katie is an RA. To me, that is just ethically wrong. But I wasn't there. They knew my opinion. Patrick even promised he wouldn't offer her any. But what happened? They all drink together while I sit here dealing with drunks up the wahzoo. "We miss you..." was the phrase I heard over and over again. I don't fucking care that you miss me. I care that I'm not in control of the situation. I care that I told you all how I felt about the situation and you all chose to disregard everything I said. I'm already mad that girls from my floor lied to my face about having alcohol or being drunk. I'm mad that I'm going to be up until 4 in order to be leaving in the morning at 9.
Patrick calls and feels terrible that I'm upset and keeps asking why I'm so quiet when I've told him multiple times the situation at hand. I acted peeved with both Jessie and Katie. I can't hide my emotions and I really wish I could because I think I would be in a better place with less people mad at me if that was so.