back from the dead with a story to tell
so i decided to spark up my livejournal again and actually write. i consider this entry the beginning to the end of my livejournal life. I'm sorry i disappeared for so long without a goodbye or notice. My life became complete chaos in the matter of days, but i am quickly getting adjusted to it and setting a stable life for myself. Although i've put myself in some sticky risky situations, everything's gone by so smooth and i'm so thankful. I was complaining about my life the other day and someone really opened up my eyes. I do have everything I could ask for. Maybe it's not luxurious celebrity stuff, but it's a lot better than most people. I have an amazing family who even though can get on my nerves, are always there for me and adore me more than anything. And to be honest, all this quality time i've been spending with them lately has made me realize how I can actually have a good time with them. My family actually makes me laugh, and thats better than anything else. I have a great job with awesome coworkers. I don't think my life would be where it was right now if it weren't for that. I'm making a lot of money, more than any average 16 year old is making. And I'm actually having a blast while doing so. I have those few friends I really love and have an awesome time with them and can actually talk to them. Yea, I always complain about my "friends" and how i don't have any. But truth of the matter is I do. I have more than a hand full of real friends. And I thank God everyday for that. Maybe I don't seem like it, or act like it, but I actually have a brain, and a future on my shoulders. I've been given the chance and capability to make something of myself in the future, and that's not something everyone gets. I have a home, and food, and electricity, and water, and clothes. Once work started, my life got crazy. I lost time for everything. But as the days go by I've been able to manage my social life with everything else. Ironic as it sounds, since I've been working I've actually better'd my social life. A lot has happened since I last wrote and I'm so happy with my life right now. I know times can get tough, but in the long run, looking back at my life, there is no way I could complain. God has blessed me with a lot of chances and it would be so wrong of me to ever take that for granted. This spring break I plan on working, going out, being with my family, and just giving thanks and taking advantage of all the good things I could do. This is a time where I'm just going by day by day, enjoying everything life has to offer. My mother is pregnant and I can't begin to explain how excited I am. I've barely spoken to her lately because we're both always busy, but I know she'll be okay. We really hope it's a boy. I cannot wait. A new part of me will come about, and this time I'll get to share it with my little sister Bianca, so it'll be so much more special. My dad's signing date is April 1st.. 3o days later means ALOT OF MONEY. which means yessenia gets her car. I'm too excited. My grandma went to Puerto Rico for a week and it was just me and my dad, and we got along so well. I love my dad so much. He truely brings out the best in me. I also missed my mima so much, when she came back it was like a new beginning. Everything changed. There was so much love and joy in the room. I love her with all my heart, she is the reason I am who I am today. I can't imagine my life without her and I'm grateful she's still alive and healthy, I only pray that it stays that way for a long time. My kids need to meet her because she is an angel. I have a lot on my plate, and I'm taking it slow. Nick and I are back on talking terms. And we have talked about how much we love each other. We've decided to stay really close right now as friends, and maybe later in time we will try us again. I really do care about him so much, but I know it would be a wrong choice to try it again right now. But I know for sure, that we will be one day again. I love you Nickstickles! It's nice to have someone u really care about and trust as one of your best friends. So yeah, I'm really happy and I couldn't ask for more. I doubt I'll be updating anytime soon again, but atleast none of you are clueless about whats going on in my life. Actually, this wasn't really for people, it was just something I needed to do, I needed to let things out, and I sorta missed writing in here. Theres something about writing in my journal that makes me feel at peace. So for those of you who forgot bout me or don't really care, don't feel bad. It's not for you, it's for me. <3