you make me sick!!!!
I lost another "best friend" yesterday, as some of you could tell from my comments, I'm sorry if I seem careless and cruel, but I'm finding it difficult to care. I'm not at the point where I want to sort things and work things out, I don't want to bother and give my self another stress factor, if you can't be understanding enough to get the fact that i'm going through a lot through your head, and you want to end our friendship just because I'm not at my best lately, then I'm not going to care. If you were the friend you claim to be, then you'd stick it through no matter what. But if you think that by your cruel words I'm going to feel hurt and appologize for something I have not done, then you are so wrong. You've told me before, "when you hate someone you can make someone feel horrible" .. well my dear, I'm just as bad, maybe even meaner than you are. And I don't get hurt by things people like you say because I know they're just words. And a real friend would never say things like you did. I don't care anymore if they were out of anger, or you meant them. Our friendship can be considered done. And I thank you for the things you have done, and given me. But that's all over and done with now. I'm sorry if I hurt you, but if I had some kind of a heart I'd tell you you hurt me more. But since I don't, then like you said to me... FUCK YOU.
Life is getting a lot better. My dad and I are doing really good, and everything's working out. It's all because of my faith in God, and my decision to not give up. I need to help him, he needs help, and I'm not going to leave him alone in the dark. I know what that feels like, and it's not a good feeling. I'm going to be here for him no matter what, because he is my life. He is my soul, and he is my strength. Ups and downs, thick and thin, good and bad, he is my dad.
I can't wait till I start getting payed, things are gonna be better. Today I went to church with my dad, finally I've gotten him to go with me, so we can go every weekend. It'll bring only good things to our family. And there's also a really hot guy at my church I must meet ;] lol. Wow, he was so cute.
There are some people I'm getting to know better, and it's really cool and ironic who they are. I'm excited. Tonight I'm sleeping at yvy's house and we're going to have oh so much fun. She really is such a good friend to me and I adore her with all my heart. Paris And Nikki fucking Rock !We're all skipping school tomorrow so we don't get shot, and going to eat breakfast, it's going to be nice. Alexis comes home so tomorrow I'm definetly going to go visit her! yay. Okay, well my mom's here to pick me up for a family BBQ so I've gotta go.
I LOVE YOU ALL ! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ! <3