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i can't take anything anymore, really.
things are good on paper for the most part, so why does everything feel like such complete shit? i don't know, good question. i just really would like everything to feel better. my throat really hurts, for longer than a week & that is the last of my problems. i no longer give any sort of shit at all. i am going to say what i want to say, think what i want to think, do what i want to do, so on and so forth... i think everyone should, to a certain extent. and i won't go over the line, but i'm not fucking masking anything anymore. everything is fucking with my body and my head, to the point where i don't know what to feel or do. i'm happy, but i'm not. i'm actually pretty upset, and not doing well. and i'll finally admit it. i am going crazy. i'm hurt, i'm disappointed, i'm upset, i'm confused, i'm addicted, i'm a liar, i'm a giver, i'm a taker, i'm selfish, i'm selfless, i'm tired, i'm not ready to let go, i'm in denial, i'm not over it. i'm not over any of it. and i don't want to be over some of it, while others i do.
i am sick and tired the way people treat each other like they are the most important thing ever and everyone else is a piece of shit. i'm sick and tired of the way people talk down to one another. i'm sick and tired of the constant judgment from everyone around you, including people who say they love and care about you. well this is me, take it or leave it. no one is making you stay. because i don't give a shit anymore, go run along and do your own thing if you don't like something. i'm not here to please you. i am here to live & learn.
i feel so awful right now that it's making me physically ill. i'm tired, so much fatigue. i'm upset, my body aches & feels like it is going to collapse. my stomach hurts, as well as my fucking liver.
i'm just a mess right now. and i'm crying, which is something that i never do...
i'm really scared. i'm really not doing well. i'm really just, ugh.
things are good on paper for the most part, so why does everything feel like such complete shit? i don't know, good question. i just really would like everything to feel better. my throat really hurts, for longer than a week & that is the last of my problems. i no longer give any sort of shit at all. i am going to say what i want to say, think what i want to think, do what i want to do, so on and so forth... i think everyone should, to a certain extent. and i won't go over the line, but i'm not fucking masking anything anymore. everything is fucking with my body and my head, to the point where i don't know what to feel or do. i'm happy, but i'm not. i'm actually pretty upset, and not doing well. and i'll finally admit it. i am going crazy. i'm hurt, i'm disappointed, i'm upset, i'm confused, i'm addicted, i'm a liar, i'm a giver, i'm a taker, i'm selfish, i'm selfless, i'm tired, i'm not ready to let go, i'm in denial, i'm not over it. i'm not over any of it. and i don't want to be over some of it, while others i do.
i am sick and tired the way people treat each other like they are the most important thing ever and everyone else is a piece of shit. i'm sick and tired of the way people talk down to one another. i'm sick and tired of the constant judgment from everyone around you, including people who say they love and care about you. well this is me, take it or leave it. no one is making you stay. because i don't give a shit anymore, go run along and do your own thing if you don't like something. i'm not here to please you. i am here to live & learn.
i feel so awful right now that it's making me physically ill. i'm tired, so much fatigue. i'm upset, my body aches & feels like it is going to collapse. my stomach hurts, as well as my fucking liver.
i'm just a mess right now. and i'm crying, which is something that i never do...
i'm really scared. i'm really not doing well. i'm really just, ugh.