EXCUSE MY WHiLE I GO SCREAM...
[x] My lips are screaming pretty nothing's
And hope has left me shattered. [x]
ugh! i hate drama! its the friggin worse thing in the world! okay so this week hasnt gone anything how julee planned.
sunday i went to abercrombie and bought clothes.. how bad could that be? not bad at all.. it was actually fun! i stalked megan and carly. =) dont yall just love me! then me and mommy stopped at sonic and i got mine and dianas fav. LEMONBERRY SLUSH BABY! well after all that shananagins i went to alexanders house for awhile. we watched remember the titans and one tree hill.. then we wrestled.. ha it was fun! =) god i <3 that boy! hmm then i came home sometime that night and talked to him for god knows how long
then yesterday was an alright day i guess.. my grandpa had a dr. appt. about his cancer and they wanna give him another ct scan bc they don't know if he has cancer anywhere else. i had a bad weekend with that. Sat was the football game and before that my grandpa had come over. When he was leaving i gave him a hug and said "Bye Grandpa i love you" and he replied with a simple "i love you too" then he walked to the hallway to leave and turned around bc i was walking behind him and with a soft grandfatherly voice said "i love you sooooo much" yep.. that did me in.. after he left i came upstairs and broke down. i don't wanna lose him.. everyone please pray for my grandpa and that he'll stick around longer then expected.
today there was soo much drama! so lets just say... word was that alex tried kissing jessica. i don't wanna take sides.. i love them both! i just want the truth.. i want both of them in my life bc they are both a big part. i don't care anymore i won't be mad i just want the truth.. serioiusly.. is that soo much to ask? i guess so tho! bc neither of them can come to an agreement on their stories. but to make everything worse alex was at central today! so i didn't even get to see him all day! tonight hes comming over and were going to talk about all this stuff... :/ i don't know about all this drama. i just want to close a door and it be behind us. i'm so worried about everything. god i'm stressed. i don't know who or what to belive anymore..i don't even have my own feelings anymore or thoughts.. how sad is that?
i think the 2 biggest highlights in my day were parking next to eric wehmeyer!! =) and seeing his sexy self this morning and then my ride home with cole and diana. ha yep diana.. god that girl is my world! what would i do without her. she likes this boy peter.. its wayy cute dudes! i'm soo glad shes happy.. her positive and my negative energy this morning shocked us! ha seriously.. i touched her and she got shocked! poor thing! i thought she was going to die! car rides home are so fun!! kassi thinks me and cole are gonna get together bc we were joking in the car and yeah we have this inside joke where i call him my boyfriend and he calls me his girlfriend.. don't ask! we weird like that! i like smileys =) even if i am in a bad mood.. talking about diana brightens my days up! she is def. my best friend, my other half, my sister at heart. no one can take that away! i wish her the best of luck with PETER the GREAT! haha i love you baby girl! bee eff eff
i broke part of my permanet bottom retainer today! my tounge is attatched to it! its like raw now.. boy o boy does it hurt! :/ i think i'm going to cry! j/kkk!! i need to go get it fixed before i die! that would not be good!! please go to my funeral.. gracious.. i'm ASKiNG people to go! i'm friendless..will you be my friend? =)
anywho! i'm outtie.. alexanders on his way over to talk about things and i'm going to eat dinner.. good bye and i probley won't update anymore tonight.. or i might! but idk! if i don't good night yall!
xoxo j.n.l