Busy busy
I have been busy to say the very least. My work is treating me like a slave, but I am still thankful as I telecommute and therefore set my own pace to keep my sanity. If I had to sit in a cubicle and do the work I do, I might go insane.
I got a call from my father's wife the other day, who I had not talked to in 11 months, I also talked to my father during the same phone call, whom I had also not talked to in the last 11 months. They invited me to dine with them on Saturday at 3 PM with her parents and my grandparents. Really what they wanted is for me to pretend like nothing had happened, to pretend that we had all been friends for the last 11 months and that nothing had changed. But the fact is that I have lost the relationship I used to share with my father, and it's gone forever, most likely never to return. It is difficult to think that a person for whom I help such unconditional love and implicit trust I now hold neither. It makes me question others in my life to the point of becoming paranoid. But I can't continue on like that, I shall trust those who give me no reason not to and be wary of those who give me no reason to trust them. People change, relationships change, the only thing that doesn't change is that everything changes. How cliche.
I got a call from my father's wife the other day, who I had not talked to in 11 months, I also talked to my father during the same phone call, whom I had also not talked to in the last 11 months. They invited me to dine with them on Saturday at 3 PM with her parents and my grandparents. Really what they wanted is for me to pretend like nothing had happened, to pretend that we had all been friends for the last 11 months and that nothing had changed. But the fact is that I have lost the relationship I used to share with my father, and it's gone forever, most likely never to return. It is difficult to think that a person for whom I help such unconditional love and implicit trust I now hold neither. It makes me question others in my life to the point of becoming paranoid. But I can't continue on like that, I shall trust those who give me no reason not to and be wary of those who give me no reason to trust them. People change, relationships change, the only thing that doesn't change is that everything changes. How cliche.