House time
We bought a house last Monday. It's funny. The older I get, the more I believe in fate. When I first lived on this street 5 years ago, I would look at this terribly dilapidated and literally condemned house and think, that is such a wonderful house, I wish I could buy it and fix it up. Well, 4 years later the owner finally fixed it up and we were the first renters since the house got a new occupancy permit. Now after a year, we convinced the landlord to sell us the house.
Is it a cop-out to believe in fate? What about god? What if you have always believed there isn't a god, but you realize that you have to believe in something in order to survive?
Is it normal to think that for whatever good happens to me, I have bargained for it in a previous life and will pay for this present good fortune through future hardships?
I don't think so.
Is it true that the older you get, the less able you are to withstand the stresses of life. Why do some people become more negative the older they get? Is it fear that drives that negativity? Regret?
I think it's fear.
How do you control your fear? What if your fear is of dying, how do you face that? Do you go buy a house?
I think going through the rituals of adulthood, like marriage, family, home ownership is yey! super great. but it also sucks. Cause these questions are always there. They get louder when you realize that you aren't waiting to start living when you graduate, or move out of your parents but you're right there in the middle of living, of planning your weekends and of going to sleep every night wondering where the day went.
Is it a cop-out to believe in fate? What about god? What if you have always believed there isn't a god, but you realize that you have to believe in something in order to survive?
Is it normal to think that for whatever good happens to me, I have bargained for it in a previous life and will pay for this present good fortune through future hardships?
I don't think so.
Is it true that the older you get, the less able you are to withstand the stresses of life. Why do some people become more negative the older they get? Is it fear that drives that negativity? Regret?
I think it's fear.
How do you control your fear? What if your fear is of dying, how do you face that? Do you go buy a house?
I think going through the rituals of adulthood, like marriage, family, home ownership is yey! super great. but it also sucks. Cause these questions are always there. They get louder when you realize that you aren't waiting to start living when you graduate, or move out of your parents but you're right there in the middle of living, of planning your weekends and of going to sleep every night wondering where the day went.