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[yerflyisdown101]

This is bullshat. I don't know what is exactly, but something is definitely bullshat. The only thing i have to look forward to is my/Frances's birthday, and honestly, I'm questioning how fun that's going to be. I'm not good at be sneaky and conniving. I try to pretend like i am on weekends, but it's safe to say that i'm defunct in this area. I don't remember what defunct means, but i'm guessing that was an appropriate time to use it. if i could just stop thinking how much i was betraying the old peoples' trust... jesus. so many obligations, so little time. i don't wanna call aaron claxton because i'm scared of him, a little. i do want to go see hannah, but then walking came into the equation and that bagged that proverbial class. and i don't want to write my flippin' application letters because what the hell am i honestly supposed to say. and i feel like i should have been done with them like a year ago anyway. y'know? ay dios mio! el estres! it'll be okay in the end. o and by the way, i'm being such an ass to my poor baby sister. as much of an ass as you can be to someone who's one... i'm just not being as lax, i suppose, and although it may not be a bad thing, i feel like a jerk. FEEL MY WRATH! ahhh (sigh of relief). that felt mighty good. so i lied so i wouldn't have to go carolling... i think that was bad? i'm losing all moral fiber that i ever once could have hoped to have had. there was a definite overabundance of tense changes in that last sentence.
"i'm not as stupid as you thought that i thought that you used to think that i may have once been" comes to mind. raaanting and raaaving, i'd forgotten that that is what live journal's for! raaanting and raaaving! (sung to the tune of a tisket a tasket.) my but it's easy, when you know how! i wish i knew how to write a rap. now would be a good time to write a rap. catharsis. i lack, i leak. Fuck you guys all. so says Michelle Budnik. Unforgettable. That's what you are.