fuck my life
I still am having a really hard time falling asleep at night...it seems like I jus lay there for hours with the tv off and whaever and I jus sit there with my eyes closed or ill stare up at my ceiling hopeing that my eyelids will start to feel heavy and jus fall down soi I can go to sleep..but it doesn't seem to happen until maybe an hour or 2 before I get up..
I've been trying to keep busy with drawing and painting to keep my mind off the grocery list of problems I have..but its not really working..
I need money..(who doesn't right?)
..I'm scared my phone might get shut off soon..
I'm still laid off from ups..and I'm still only work maybe 10 hours a week at little caesars and there still refusing me more hours..yet he can hire new employees jus because they are young teenage girls..I'm supposed to start at a new job..but the manager who's hiring me never answers my phone calls and never calls me back and lets me know what's going on..so I feel like this is jus a big game someones playing on me..
With the lack of work I have I don't have any sort of income..my bills are piling up and it sucks..because i was so close to catching myself up with them..
I just wanna go to sleep and wake up very very far away from all of this..but I can't fall asleep so I don't see that happening right now..
I've been trying to keep busy with drawing and painting to keep my mind off the grocery list of problems I have..but its not really working..
I need money..(who doesn't right?)
..I'm scared my phone might get shut off soon..
I'm still laid off from ups..and I'm still only work maybe 10 hours a week at little caesars and there still refusing me more hours..yet he can hire new employees jus because they are young teenage girls..I'm supposed to start at a new job..but the manager who's hiring me never answers my phone calls and never calls me back and lets me know what's going on..so I feel like this is jus a big game someones playing on me..
With the lack of work I have I don't have any sort of income..my bills are piling up and it sucks..because i was so close to catching myself up with them..
I just wanna go to sleep and wake up very very far away from all of this..but I can't fall asleep so I don't see that happening right now..