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“I'm not content to be with you in the daytime,
Girl I want to be with you all of the time.
The only time I feel alright is by your side,
Girl I want to be with you all of the time,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night.
I believe that you and me last forever,
Oh yeah, all day and nighttime yours, leave me never,
The only time I feel alright is by your side,
Girl I want to be with you all of the time,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night,
Oh, come on...
I believe that you and me last forever,
Oh yeah, all day and nighttime yours, leave me never,
The only time I feel alright is by your side,
Girl I want to be with you all of the time,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night-time,
All day and all of the night.”He’s so sweet :) Alex sang that to me in the car, whispered it right in my ear. I love him so much, sometimes I can’t understand it. We’ll be sitting on the couch, just doing nothing, when this feeling overcomes me and I want to cry because I don’t know how to express this any other way. Or sometimes I’ll just sit still and wonder why God gave him to me… It was such an amazing twist of fate that brought us together. If I hadn’t moved into computer applications, then I wouldn’t have been in Ms. Crary’s class, then I wouldn’t have sat across from Alex, then I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to sit next to him that one day and give him my number… If I wasn’t friends with Zach then I wouldn’t have asked he and Alex to go out to dinner with Erin and I, I wouldn’t have thrown Zach a birthday party where I got to know Alex better… So many things have worked out. It’s funny, because a lot of the time when something seems bad they usually create something good.
An example… Me getting drunk and cheating on Alex. If I had not gotten drunk and cheated on Alex, I think our relationship wouldn’t be as deep and as trusting as it is now, nor would I feel so compelled not to party, drink, or flirt with other guys. I believe the reason most of my relationships don’t last is because I want to move on so bad and I get so bored with my current relationship. With Alex I feel like I did something so wrong, but nevertheless he forgave me and stayed with me, so if I did something to him again, I don’t think I could get past that. Doing something to someone who’s been able to forgive you for such a wrongdoing is just sick :\
I’ve wondered why do I not want to spend time with anyone but Alex? I’ve gotten past the whole infatuation phase, I know him, he knows me, we’re comfortable around each other. Yet, why is it that when I’m not doing something with him I’m not as happy or I don’t feel as comfortable? I can sit around in my PJs with my hair crapped up, and I feel so content. I’ve found that less and less I like spending time with other people, I don’t like putting up with their interpretations of my life or their shallow views on how I think and act. Of course, not everyone is that way, but the majority of people are. They think they know me, they act like they know what I’m thinking and pretend to relate when I have something to say. It feels like people think I’m sex, sex, sex, boys, boys, boys, hair, blonde, makeup, boobs, and Abercrombie. Yes, I know I like sexuality, boys (boy), hygiene and Abercrombie, but that isn’t me. That’s just as much as I want to share with the 98% of the world who I could give a damn about. I trust people, just not enough to let them in.
Every day I’ve been able to stop and think how lucky I am to be with him, that makes me a lot calmer and helps us work through things a lot faster. He’s gotten over September; we’re so much closer and trusting… I just feel like I have to do everything I can to protect him and to make him happy, it’s overpowering and new. I’ve never felt like this before.
Girl I want to be with you all of the time.
The only time I feel alright is by your side,
Girl I want to be with you all of the time,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night.
I believe that you and me last forever,
Oh yeah, all day and nighttime yours, leave me never,
The only time I feel alright is by your side,
Girl I want to be with you all of the time,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night,
Oh, come on...
I believe that you and me last forever,
Oh yeah, all day and nighttime yours, leave me never,
The only time I feel alright is by your side,
Girl I want to be with you all of the time,
All day and all of the night,
All day and all of the night-time,
All day and all of the night.”He’s so sweet :) Alex sang that to me in the car, whispered it right in my ear. I love him so much, sometimes I can’t understand it. We’ll be sitting on the couch, just doing nothing, when this feeling overcomes me and I want to cry because I don’t know how to express this any other way. Or sometimes I’ll just sit still and wonder why God gave him to me… It was such an amazing twist of fate that brought us together. If I hadn’t moved into computer applications, then I wouldn’t have been in Ms. Crary’s class, then I wouldn’t have sat across from Alex, then I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to sit next to him that one day and give him my number… If I wasn’t friends with Zach then I wouldn’t have asked he and Alex to go out to dinner with Erin and I, I wouldn’t have thrown Zach a birthday party where I got to know Alex better… So many things have worked out. It’s funny, because a lot of the time when something seems bad they usually create something good.
An example… Me getting drunk and cheating on Alex. If I had not gotten drunk and cheated on Alex, I think our relationship wouldn’t be as deep and as trusting as it is now, nor would I feel so compelled not to party, drink, or flirt with other guys. I believe the reason most of my relationships don’t last is because I want to move on so bad and I get so bored with my current relationship. With Alex I feel like I did something so wrong, but nevertheless he forgave me and stayed with me, so if I did something to him again, I don’t think I could get past that. Doing something to someone who’s been able to forgive you for such a wrongdoing is just sick :\
I’ve wondered why do I not want to spend time with anyone but Alex? I’ve gotten past the whole infatuation phase, I know him, he knows me, we’re comfortable around each other. Yet, why is it that when I’m not doing something with him I’m not as happy or I don’t feel as comfortable? I can sit around in my PJs with my hair crapped up, and I feel so content. I’ve found that less and less I like spending time with other people, I don’t like putting up with their interpretations of my life or their shallow views on how I think and act. Of course, not everyone is that way, but the majority of people are. They think they know me, they act like they know what I’m thinking and pretend to relate when I have something to say. It feels like people think I’m sex, sex, sex, boys, boys, boys, hair, blonde, makeup, boobs, and Abercrombie. Yes, I know I like sexuality, boys (boy), hygiene and Abercrombie, but that isn’t me. That’s just as much as I want to share with the 98% of the world who I could give a damn about. I trust people, just not enough to let them in.
Every day I’ve been able to stop and think how lucky I am to be with him, that makes me a lot calmer and helps us work through things a lot faster. He’s gotten over September; we’re so much closer and trusting… I just feel like I have to do everything I can to protect him and to make him happy, it’s overpowering and new. I’ve never felt like this before.