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[yep_thattoo]

I am feeling like absolute shit.

Through the course of some incredibly fucked up shit, Steph is no longer my friend. She practically kicked my ass out of the house on Friday because Jason refused to not be friends with me.

My life is absolutely one big ball of happiness wrapped in shit.

I am excited to move.
I am excited to start school again.
I am excited to be making positive decisions for myself that meet my needs and support my sense of self-worth.
I am becoming aware of how much Gryphon-speak has infiltrated my life.
I do not want to leave the people I love: my coworkers, my friends and the city I have come to love.
I am terrified that this will all be for nothing.
I am heartbroken that Steph is no longer in my life.
I am happy to be closer to my family.
I am happy that I have a family that supports me and loves me no matter what crazy plans I make for my life.
I am happy for the friends that do love me and and won't use me as a scapegoat for the pain and frustration they are facing in their own life.

I am happy, but scared.