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another second, minute, hour, day, week passes by like nothing, lost in the anticipation of summer. not that i'm not thinking that way, because i definitely am. i'm way ready for summer, and somewhat of a break. slightly ruined by AP homework but hey, that was my choice. i suppose i should think back on this past school year as it draws to a close. i rekindled a romance i shouldn't have last summer that lasted into october, only for me to realize we're not meant for that type of relationship. i tried a new sport and ended up realizing i love running? weird. i met some new friends, and became closer with others and definitely grew apart from some. i changed my view point on certain things and my thoughts about certain aspects of my life, such as what i look for in a friendship. i met someone who at the end of this year came to change my world, it just took a while. i realized that although i'm only finishing sophomore year, i need to start figuring out what i want to do after this. i took a trip to santa barbara, where i figured that out. i found the perfect college campus for me. gorgeous and right on the beach, not too far from home, or too close, and i'll definitely be able to have fun haha. they have a club lacrosse team which is cool with me if i do decide to play in college. and i figured out that i can major in english, minor in professional writing, and be able to not only take journalism classes, but a magazine writing class, which is perfect. i achieved some really great accomplishments in my lacrosse life, such as being all league and trying out for a national tournament. it's good to know my hard work is recognized, even if only a little. i think this was a changing year for me, i figured a lot of things out about myself and was able to grow a lot, and realize what does and doesn't matter to me. i met someone who makes me smile everytime we're together. someone who i'm myself around, and who really knows me. who i can laugh with. who isn't afraid to tell me how he feels, and when he does, my heart beats faster and my stomach is filled with butterflies. someone who does all the things i always wished a boy would do for me, the things i didn't think actually happened. someone who when we're togther, we don't even have to say anything, we can just sit there together and we still have an amazing time. someone who makes me feel a way i've never felt before. so i'd say this year was a success, definitely harder than the last, but i know easier than the next. i suppose i'm ready for the challenge? junior year here i come? eh, before that, i have to get a job, inherit Papa Smokey (the camry), and turn 17. say whaaat? time flies. and i think we all need to realize that no matter how much something may suck at the time, it will pass, and something such as high school, if you just go and race your way through it, you'll look back on it and wish you would have done things differently. i want to look back and say that was one of the most fun times of my life. we just can't take things for granted, cherish every moment you have, and even the sucky things, just appreciate them at the least, because you're learning from them and they're making you stronger. i plan to have a fabulously amazing summer, enjoy every last minute of it, because lord knows it'll go fast, and fall deeper into this crazy amazing thing they call love.