A formal Apology
This is a formal, public, apology to Usagi of Sailormoonfansubs. A few days ago, I typed up a small email to Usagi, but because I had my gmail filters on, I do not know if the email arrived. I've decided to make a public post regarding my apology instead.
I've spent a while thinking about my actions 16 months ago. I've come to terms that they were certainly the most deplorable things I've ever done in my life. I don't want to think of myself as a bad person, but that was exactly what I was. I was a bully. I was the mean kid on the school yard stealing money from someone I felt was weaker than me. My actions were much less than human. I held the power to stop everything, but I pressed on... out of pride or what not. I could give all the excuses in the world but it will never justify the fact that I did bad things. I feel remorse, especially because I don't have the power to change what I've done. I want to make it right but I do not know how to make it right again. I don't think I'll ever be able to make it right. I've emotionally abused you, a person who simply wanted to be included in our project. It's probably too late, but I am sorry. Nothing I say will ever justify my actions. I understand that many people will not be able to forgive me. I understand that Usagi will probably not forgive me. I don't know how to make this right except to say sorry to Usagi... and to everyone else I've harmed in the fandom. I just don't know what to do anymore.
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I've spent a while thinking about my actions 16 months ago. I've come to terms that they were certainly the most deplorable things I've ever done in my life. I don't want to think of myself as a bad person, but that was exactly what I was. I was a bully. I was the mean kid on the school yard stealing money from someone I felt was weaker than me. My actions were much less than human. I held the power to stop everything, but I pressed on... out of pride or what not. I could give all the excuses in the world but it will never justify the fact that I did bad things. I feel remorse, especially because I don't have the power to change what I've done. I want to make it right but I do not know how to make it right again. I don't think I'll ever be able to make it right. I've emotionally abused you, a person who simply wanted to be included in our project. It's probably too late, but I am sorry. Nothing I say will ever justify my actions. I understand that many people will not be able to forgive me. I understand that Usagi will probably not forgive me. I don't know how to make this right except to say sorry to Usagi... and to everyone else I've harmed in the fandom. I just don't know what to do anymore.
Comments disabled. Anyone who wants to contact me regarding this matter can drop me an email or a PM