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well I don't have a best friend anymore...somehow it all happened and its over...I mean I know how it happened but to much to explain...I thought that in the begining of all this I wouldn't cry at all for breaking me and kaytees friendship up but I did...I mean its me I crack to easily...it was about two nights ago...I was just sittin in my room and everywhere I would turn there would be something that would make me remember her...I mean we were best friends, its ok to cry over it...but I don't know I think that I did the right thing I just wish the "tiffs" with brooke heather and kaytee would end cause I just want to be over it so I am not goin to get in the middle of it cause its none of my business...I'll let then deal... sometimes I really wish that I was still friends with kaytee because we were goin to have sooo much fricken fun this summer but just that alone isn't enough to be regretful...I don't know its just I wish I could graduate right now and move to Illinois to go to college but noooo I have one more fricken year...Yeah me and cory are ok I guess...hes just so hard to read and when I think stuff is wrong there not...hes just different than any of the other boyfriends that I have had in the past...I don't have the "gift" that kaytee has... I will give her that... she did know how to play the "dating game"... but I don't know I am just so different from her and I think that I need time to Mature more... I just want to get out of this state and school...not that the real world is any better...But kaytee if you read this I want you to know that I still love you alot and I don't even think that if you hit me with your car that, that could change that...and your right I won't be able to think about the "dryer inccident" without wanting to laugh...I mean we did have some great times and you were defenatly there for me when I needed you...You kept me from wanting to bash my head against a brick wall...You were my something to live for...But I don't know what happend between us...maybe its a break or maybe its for good...only time will tell...but if we really don't ever talk to each other again...I hope that you stay happy and I am glad that you have straightened your mind out and that you are happy again...I'll love you no matter what...and I do miss the phone calls and that one "special" ring of yours...
Brittney
Brittney