fuck this shit
i sure do like to make myself feel shitty sometimes. this week really hasn't been anything to brag about. now that i've been re-introduced to my social side.. after months of being with nobody but my family.. i want something more. first of all, i want to be free from the restraints of home. i want the end of the month to come.. NOW. i hate commuting an hour to and an hour from school every day. i hate dealing with my annoying siblings. i hate feeling like i have to bottle up my true side.
the fear that i had at the beginning of the year.. not making many friends, feeling left out.. it's gone. i interact with a lot of people on a daily basis, and i meet many new people on a daily basis. i need to get outlandish though. i've been too mild-mannered so far.
anyways. what do i have to bitch about this time.. let's see. the promise i made myself that i wouldn't get into any relationships in college? i don't think i can hold that up much longer. there are a lot of surprisingly good-looking AND down to earth girls at USF.. who aren't snobs. that's rare to find. one of them i'm unnecessarily stressed out about. i'm stupid because i have no chance.
so if anyone can explain to me the whole thing about girls backing away from guys.. i'll appreciate that.
oh, and not everyone at usf is worth writing home about. the fucking RA on 5 east can suck a dick. he thinks waaaayy too highly of himself and seemingly thinks that he's better than anyone. i absolutely LOATHE people like that.. and where does he have room to do that? yeah he's a fucking RA, big whoop. yeah he's in a fraternity.. AND?? he's got a fucking lisp that's really obvious, he needs to get his fucking teeth straightened, and he just needs to die. and stay on YOUR fucking side of the building.
paul commons is a bad ass muh-fucka.
oh. and i skipped chem today. i'm bad.
the fear that i had at the beginning of the year.. not making many friends, feeling left out.. it's gone. i interact with a lot of people on a daily basis, and i meet many new people on a daily basis. i need to get outlandish though. i've been too mild-mannered so far.
anyways. what do i have to bitch about this time.. let's see. the promise i made myself that i wouldn't get into any relationships in college? i don't think i can hold that up much longer. there are a lot of surprisingly good-looking AND down to earth girls at USF.. who aren't snobs. that's rare to find. one of them i'm unnecessarily stressed out about. i'm stupid because i have no chance.
so if anyone can explain to me the whole thing about girls backing away from guys.. i'll appreciate that.
oh, and not everyone at usf is worth writing home about. the fucking RA on 5 east can suck a dick. he thinks waaaayy too highly of himself and seemingly thinks that he's better than anyone. i absolutely LOATHE people like that.. and where does he have room to do that? yeah he's a fucking RA, big whoop. yeah he's in a fraternity.. AND?? he's got a fucking lisp that's really obvious, he needs to get his fucking teeth straightened, and he just needs to die. and stay on YOUR fucking side of the building.
paul commons is a bad ass muh-fucka.
oh. and i skipped chem today. i'm bad.