Still Here
Yes I am still here. I am alive, but I haven't been writing because 1) I forgot about the site, and 2) work and my boyfriend take up a lot of my available time. Keyna is a great guy. My feelings run deep for him. In the beginning I wrote to him through facebook and email. I haven't done that lately. Maybe I should start again, because I feel our relationship is in a rut. It's hard just talking on the phone to him. I was sooo used to seeing him every day, and all of the sudden we don't see each other for a month, or more! The first time I saw him was on July 4th in fact. And it's been about two weeks since then, and another two weeks until I can see him again - the weekend of my birthday. I read in a magazine once that if you're in a long distance relationship (which Keyna and I are), then you shouldn't mope on the phone how little of each other you get to see, and talk more about daily life because it lightens the mood. But it's hard to focus on that, and I've been trying to. I keep telling myself it's only two weeks until I see him again (hopefully my mom won't say no this time), then another two until camp is done. Maybe then I'll see him again after work finishes, & school begins another two weeks after that. Six weeks in total and I think I have them planned out as to when I will see him. I just can't wait until we are back together. I feel he's kind of like an extension of myself, and it's been missing for the summer. Like the song 'I Left My Heart In SF', I left MY heart in Dickeyville. I know my mom doesn't believe we'll go on for much longer but I feel we will, and it seems he does as well. We've been apart for so long it's like my love for him just grows deeper everyday. And it's nice too because I can maintain my independance but yet I still feel connected to him... Anyway, I'll write more later. I am exhausted from a day of work, I was going to take a nap when I got home but didn't want to because I was afraid I wouldn't wake up until tomorrow :) So ttyl and I'll remember the website from now on.