i need to relaxxxx.
yeah i don't know why i'm doing an update right now, because i'm just gonna semi-bitch the whole time and i really hate doing that. but whatever, i already started, so there's no going back now. i'm really REALLY nervouse for school. it's less than two weeks away, i haven't talked to my roommate yet, and i'm just scared i guess. i don't know. i mean, i want to go away, but i just have a feeling that once i leave, i'm gonna hate it and just sulk and cry my eyes out. i don't know. i guess this would be a lot easier if i wasn't the first one out of "the five" or even my whole group of friends to leave first. it's just, i knew this day would come, but i never realized how soon.... i don't know, i don't wanna be away for my mom's birthday, or mine, or miss the 311 concert or anything. i just wish i didn't have to leave so soon. that's what's really killing me inside. and i hate this feeling, because i know that there's nothing i can do to change it... whatever, i just can't think about it anymore, even though it's pretty unavoidable... ugh...