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The past weekend and the days following have been one of the more eventful yet stressful weeks that I've had since I came back home here.
School is definitely taking its toll on me mentally and emotionally. I have been so stressed out with trying to differentiate what I'm doing now and how much of that is influenced by my parents' expections from me. I know I need to do what makes me happy, but... I don't know... It just isn't as easy as it seems. I have lost most of my motivation and sense of direction. It feels so weird because I always felt like I had this shit under wraps, but that is just not the case.
I had a really nice talk with Sebby and my Aussie mum, Sandy, last week and they gave me some great advice that really helped ease some of my stress. I was able to hear what was going on in my head, only from someone elses mouth. Now that I know what I NEED to do, I just have to figure what HOW to do it.
I'm going to talk to my counselor next week as soon as I'm done with all my finals. Something is really bugging me and I need to get this settled soon. I just haven't been feeling the same. Going out usually makes me feel better, but lately whoever I am with and wherever I am, I still feel antisocial. I need to get out of this because graduation is coming up and a few friends are moving in a couple of weeks and I want to enjoy my time with them.
Ugh.
Hopefully Cinco De Mayo will make me feel better. Some great messican food, drinks, etc.
If not, I might need to take a mini vacation up north somewhere.
That would be nice.
School is definitely taking its toll on me mentally and emotionally. I have been so stressed out with trying to differentiate what I'm doing now and how much of that is influenced by my parents' expections from me. I know I need to do what makes me happy, but... I don't know... It just isn't as easy as it seems. I have lost most of my motivation and sense of direction. It feels so weird because I always felt like I had this shit under wraps, but that is just not the case.
I had a really nice talk with Sebby and my Aussie mum, Sandy, last week and they gave me some great advice that really helped ease some of my stress. I was able to hear what was going on in my head, only from someone elses mouth. Now that I know what I NEED to do, I just have to figure what HOW to do it.
I'm going to talk to my counselor next week as soon as I'm done with all my finals. Something is really bugging me and I need to get this settled soon. I just haven't been feeling the same. Going out usually makes me feel better, but lately whoever I am with and wherever I am, I still feel antisocial. I need to get out of this because graduation is coming up and a few friends are moving in a couple of weeks and I want to enjoy my time with them.
Ugh.
Hopefully Cinco De Mayo will make me feel better. Some great messican food, drinks, etc.
If not, I might need to take a mini vacation up north somewhere.
That would be nice.