Growth
I've just recently begun to notice just how narrow of a perspective my writing, particularly in this livejournal, is. Very rarely do I dare venture into things such as social ills and injustices, politics, things in life that make me furious and things in life that make me giddy. It's not much of a place where I internally argue or complain about something. Instead, the livejournal has been filled with my learning and enlightening moments, the times when I feel like God has really tried to say something specific to me and the manner in which I learned it.
Though I think what HAS been written in this journal is definitely something I can be confident in and proud of, it has not been something that has indicated growth. The perspective of the entries may have changed, from that of a teenager in the midst of puberty to that of a young graduate student, but the nature of them have not. In a sense, it's like I haven't really grown that much. The breadth of the topics that I've ventured forth has been surprisingly shallow; it's mostly been things that I have personally experienced myself, things in which I am confident enough so as to write a long entry about. I've already rifled through my thoughts, sorted them out, and organized them so that it becomes a more complete and coherent lesson. In a sense, I suppose it's been more a place of reporting, rather than exploring, and I'm not quite sure I want it to stay that way.
Because at the same time, I've been wanting to use this as a way to explore some of my thoughts, the place I turn to when I'm wondering about something, perplexed by something. I suppose I hold back from doing that because I don't like to publish (however unofficially) a piece that seems incomplete or unbaked. But how much better would it be if this could be a way for me to ask questions that seem to overwhelming to ask someone face to face? Maybe look into and dissect a matter that doesn't make any sense to me.
I don't know, I guess overall, I just feel like I have personally grown and moved out of the emphasis that this livejournal has been, but the nature of this blog hasn't really changed much. But now that I feel like my writing isn't moving along at the same pace that the rest of my life is going, it really seems like a part of me is being left behind. This probably means I need to learn how to translate the rest of my life into a way that I can write about it again, but hopefully you'll be seeing more of me in the blog in a more frequent manner.
Though I think what HAS been written in this journal is definitely something I can be confident in and proud of, it has not been something that has indicated growth. The perspective of the entries may have changed, from that of a teenager in the midst of puberty to that of a young graduate student, but the nature of them have not. In a sense, it's like I haven't really grown that much. The breadth of the topics that I've ventured forth has been surprisingly shallow; it's mostly been things that I have personally experienced myself, things in which I am confident enough so as to write a long entry about. I've already rifled through my thoughts, sorted them out, and organized them so that it becomes a more complete and coherent lesson. In a sense, I suppose it's been more a place of reporting, rather than exploring, and I'm not quite sure I want it to stay that way.
Because at the same time, I've been wanting to use this as a way to explore some of my thoughts, the place I turn to when I'm wondering about something, perplexed by something. I suppose I hold back from doing that because I don't like to publish (however unofficially) a piece that seems incomplete or unbaked. But how much better would it be if this could be a way for me to ask questions that seem to overwhelming to ask someone face to face? Maybe look into and dissect a matter that doesn't make any sense to me.
I don't know, I guess overall, I just feel like I have personally grown and moved out of the emphasis that this livejournal has been, but the nature of this blog hasn't really changed much. But now that I feel like my writing isn't moving along at the same pace that the rest of my life is going, it really seems like a part of me is being left behind. This probably means I need to learn how to translate the rest of my life into a way that I can write about it again, but hopefully you'll be seeing more of me in the blog in a more frequent manner.